its near.

and i just wana savour every moment before the big day comes. theres so much in my head and mind and heart these days. i'm feeling happy, excited, sad, scared, nervous.. all at the same time.

i'm happy of cos as i am looking forward to spend my life with that special someone. i'm excited cos its gona be another meaningful transition in my life. i'm sad cos i'm gona shift out of the house and be a so called 'distant' daughter. i'm gona miss having my family with me all the time. i'm gona miss chilling and crapping with my bros late at night during sch holidays. i'm gona miss my mums nagging and my dads not funny jokes. i'm gona miss having food laid on the table when i come back from work. i'm gona miss being spared from housework. i'm gona miss all the wedding preps as i already am missing the reno preps. i'm gona miss feeling busy for reasons other than work. i'm gona miss being a girlfriend and a fiance. i'm gona miss being 'single'. i'm gona miss my girlfrens. i'm gona miss the freedom i have to chill with them till late nite. i'm gona miss gg on holidays with them.

but like wat a dear fren said..it will all fall into place and things would be ok. insyallah.

and like wat my cuzzin said just now.. its all about learning to adapt. and i know for sure, its easier said than done.

i pray that i can adapt fast and adapt well.

this week was indeed VERY tiring. the daily consultation kicked in and it only takes FOUR days for me to feel so zonked out. gosh. i thought i had more energy in me. haha. nonetheless, i still managed to find time for my loved ones. just met up with nad for some sushi. the jap green tea tasted horrible. i'm so gona miss my random meet ups with the tampinesians.. sigh.

looking forward to sat.

thank you for the sweet surprise.*big big smile*

i'm getting busier by the day. or maybe i am just as busy everyday. this week i've started my daily consultation session with the kids. so everyday is a long day.

and after the long day (which ends close to 7), i still have to settle the nitty gritty stuffs fr the wedding. so my day continues till abt 10 or 11 at nite! gosh. everyday there's an agenda. this and that. i'm like on shifts. teacher in the day. everything else at nite. haha. first it was all the reno and house stuffs (for a good few months)and now...its back to wedding preps.

today i rushed off to geylang aft work. reached there close to 8. managed to get THE baju kurung. didnt manage to get heels. found a nice pair but its only 3.5 inches! i need more height people. oh i'm sure everyone knows that by now. hehe. i have to match up to someone lah. haha. but i'm glad i've found the baju kurung. tts one thing off the checklist.

i thot i was done and over with the search for heels. BUT due to some changes i made, now must search for a second pair! and i hate hate hate looking for heels. too many criteria to fit.

looking forward to saturday evening!

next week is already week 4. its SO fast. and my heart is beating faster by the week.

two weddings for the past two weekends.. kinda getting me into the 'mood'. duno how mine will turn out to be. hopefully all will go smoothly. i pray for fine weather. i hope my guests would come. hehe.

oh the planning excites me. and whatever you mentioned about december just now excites me MORE. i REALLY hope it will come true.

june holidays, please come SOON...

7 more weeks. june holidays, come quick.

getting nervous by the day. its all jittery now.

i'm glad we found each other.

syidah looked gorgeous on her wedding day! congrats to you and farhan! farhan, well done for saying it all LOUD AND CLEAR. wishing you both a blissful life together.. enjoy the upcoming honeymoon.. and syidah, make full use of your splurge *winks*

its my turn next. *gasps* insyallah.

i hate this part rite here.

a fren of mine gave me a penguin icon on msn. and i love it cos its cute. the penguin looks so sian and was dragging its heavy self to move. like theres no other choice but to just keep on moving.

rite now, i feel exactly like the penguin. except tt its not so cute to be the penguin.

i feel so weak in my knees i can hardly speak. and i am just dreading my way thru. like the penguin.

i need more than medicine. i need more than antibiotics and cough syrup.

sick.