My little bubble of thoughts..: January 2007

Sunday, January 28, 2007

finally i can blog! been trying for the last few days but sumhow my screen shows up in chinese and i couldnt understand a thing. even my password was rejected. weirdo!

anywayz, i have been slightly under the weather the past few days. skipped aerobics cos i didnt want to take the risk of getting sick-er. heh. but now i am fine! yay. no more runny nose and phlegm.

the past week in school had been good.. made yoghurt with my class.. it was so fun! hehe.. my school decided to switch to classroom system..i'm so happy! cos i am a firm believer of class identity.. and i really feel that the classroom is the platform for it. my class has decided on a particular concept which is gona remain a secret till we get our room done! we gona clean it up as a class this wednesday..i've told them to bring their rags! cleaning up is the first step. then comes the whole doing up. i have set up the class decor committee...such a big committee of 16 ppl!! they volunteered.. so i cant say no. splitting them up into smaller groups.. so far my kids have been pouring in a lot of creative juices.. hope it will come true. i'm so excited! theres even gona be vendors coming to school to set up stalls for teachers to do some 'shopping'! hehe. i am gona snap pics of this whole process and the final outcome. haha. i'm THAT excited. hehehe.

i watched Babel with pipi on friday nite. its a great show. do catch it. i really like it. worth the 9.50! oh and on that same nite, i accidentally shopped. bought one knee length dress and one top. didnt even plan to buy anything. just so happened i stepped into the shop while waiting for the movie.. and i kinda like the pieces... hmm. so much so for my no shopping this month. but i guess thats abt it fr this mth. not my priority this time around. i've been spending on cute little stuffz for work related matters instead! SUMHOW. hahaha. maybe cos i'm feeling it. haha.

i badly need a pair of shoes tho. my fav closed toe heels is getting worn out. sigh. hate looking for shoes. for my ultra tiny feet.

i spent my sat morning in school as usual.. yeah.. in case u are wondering, its actually by choice that i am coming to sch every sat morning. decided that its better this way. i can get some things done and be more at ease when i 'let loose' in the evening.. haha.. and not so kanchiong on monday mornings. i actually kinda like coming on sat mornings.. cos its really own time own target and sumhow tt ticks.

spent my sat afternoon in the bank. argh. what a waste of time. waited for two hours plus just to sign on three papers! but i finally found a pretty good rate for a fixed deposit. its a CNY promotion. yay! finally.

time is passing real fast. this week is already week 5. half the first term is soon gone!! gosh. i heard that the O's results would be out on sat.. gosh.. so scary!!!!! and A's a week later. even scarier cos my bro took it! oh man..

to all those who are anxiously waiting for the results, hang in there.. THE day will come... meanwhile, dun think abt it and just play hard. all the best ppl..

Saturday, January 20, 2007

yesterday, once again, i was reminded of why i am in teaching. its because of the students. or as i always call them, my kids. teaching them in class and getting them to learn is one thing.. seeing them outside class, taking pride in what they do for their CCA is another. really, CCA recruitment day made me realise how holistic education is all about. Doesnt matter that some of them arent the top students in class, cos they can definitely lead. i must say that some of them are really natural born leaders who has great potential to go far. it was heartwarming to see them so confident. i'm proud of them. and i definitely hope that their experience in CCA would be a platform for them to stretch their capabilities.

oh have i mentioned how much my sec ones have grown.. yeah man.. last year they were all so small and shorter than me.. or maybe the same height as me.. but this year, they have all shot up and so much taller than me.. and of cos, they are so VERY VERY happy that they get to 'beat' me. its so funny tau... how excited they are about it. especially the boys. they will ALWAYS brag about it. sheesh. and they go on and on about being taller than me. please people, its not hard at all to be taller than me. so, no biggie ok! hehehe..

met up with my fav girls after school.. good time talking abt so many things.. was very surprised by xuefen's new look. didnt think that cutting the fringe can make such a big difference. took me quite a while to get used to it.. nevertheless, she looks like felicia chin now. hee. mission accomplished girl. anyway babe, dun worry too much abt ur hair and ur job.. all the terms and conditions and stuffz..

suzie already went back to dubai. there goes my chance of meeting her. sheesh. me and marlin were just thinking of chilling out with her. the next thing i know, she is leaving already! sigh.. i miss her .. and miss those times me and her chill out after work..

my bro is back. he's not any thinner nor darker. so weird. haha. anyway, he's full of NS stories.. all the pumping and stuffz.. he's so grown up.. and that makes me feel very old. sigh. i hate growing up!!

gona meet pipi today.. gona have a good lunch at far east and window shop.. not really into shopping this time around..but u'll never know. haha.

ok dokies, time to get dressed and go to school to do stuffz. heh.. have a great saturday everyone!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

my back is aching and all my muscles seem so cramped. thanks to aerobics. haha. but its all good.

today, i went to the place where i spent two years struggling. the place where i met some beautiful souls. the place where stress took a new meaning. yes. for those who know me, you'd prolly have guessed it. i went to TEMASEK JC.

back then, i was a scrawny kid who was determined to get through A' levels and secure myself a place in NUS. the next thing i know, i am driving into the same school but now as a teacher! how time flies... its been FIVE years. as i looked around the school, i noticed the changes. the physical changes. but the essence of the temasek culture is still evident. As i walked along the corridors, I found myself going back to the past.. i still remember the times me and my clique hanged out at the canteen.. heh.. the MCS table they called it. the study tables under LT1. the bio lectures at LT2. the corridors where reny always stopped to talk to juniors AND seniors. heh. that friendly friend of mine. we were always late for lessons thanks to her. i dun see why she must salam every single malay student she sees along the way. me and farah would just smile.. couldnt be bothered.. haha.. i could feel it all... the stressful yet memorable days.. it taught me the power of friends. how friendships can be a strong motivation for you to go through hardship. instantly, i miss every single TJ friend of mine. Reny, Farah, Jas, Abby, Azmin, Amirul, Hafiz, Myra, Fath, Taufik, Lat... these were the people i was really closed to.. such a gerek bunch of ppl.. its always fun and laughter with them.. i miss their crap and their mentelness. i MISS school! gosh. wish i can get back my teen years. i dun miss my TKGS days that much.. but i really really miss TJ and NUS days.

well no matter how much i miss, the past is still the past. at least i knw my past was graced by wonderful people.. i love u all. mwah.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

today is a very 'happening' day.

i went to school feeling very frustated cos i felt sick and tired of ppl in the house nagging at me to have my breakfast. every morning is a rush for me. i hardly have time to sit and eat breakfast. nevertheless, i would still pack food to eat in school. so, no issue for me. but but but, my parents insistsssssssssssss on me SITTING down and EAT it there and then. i would love to do so, but most of the time i just need to get to school asap to settle some morning routine! hence, i am said to have poor time management! gimme a break please! try be in my shoes and see if its all that easy. seriously, things are a lot easier said than done.

anyways, i had a very emotional conversation with one student just now. he's going through a difficult time which i have experienced before. thus, when i was listening to him, the past just came back to me and i was overwhelmed with sadness. i ended up tearing as i shared with him my similar experience and how i dealt with it.. eventually he teared too. i hope he could see it through my tears that i am one person who can really understand how he is feeling and i'd always be there for a helping hand. this morning also made me realise how much others can make you reflect on life and how we sometimes forget experiences that has taught us a great deal.

later on in the afternoon, my 4J chem students made my day. i had a late aft lesson with them and it was the fourth lesson back to back for me. was so worn out and thirsty and hungry! they asked me if i had eaten or drank anything.. so i gave them a frank no. few mins later i made them do some worksheet while i go back to the staff room to get the periodic table for them. when i came back, one boy was not in class.. apparently he went to the toilet.. so, fine. i didnt suspect anything. a few mins later he came up with egg sandwiches and green tea! i scolded him saying "oh so now toilet sells bread and drinks huh?" and he replied "cher.. its for you lahhh"

and oh man... was i embarassed!! but very touched too!!! thanks for the concern guys... i appreciate it a lot lot lot. giggles. such a sweet and thoughtful gesture!!

a simple act can make a world of difference.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Have you ever felt so alone when facing some problems?

Sometimes, our actions are misinterpreted and we become the villain. Logically speaking, it is the villain's fault but realitiscally, only the villain knows how hard it is to defend himself. cos no one completely understands. but then again, no one is expected to completely understand. so, the blame comes back to the villain. no matter what the villain says and think, it does not matter at all. cos the victims are always right. its tough to be the villain. a villain not by choice. but the victims will say "there's always a choice. its a matter of efforts." so the villain lacks effort. effort is relative. but i guess in this case, its defined by the victims. i pity both parties. i hate the villain cos ultimately he is the root of the problem. the villain MUST change, regardless anything. Before the end comes.