life presents itself in stages. each stage comes with a set of unique challenges. the journey is tough. sometimes we feel happy. sometimes we feel lost. sometimes we hold on to the past that we are blinded by the blessings of the present. sometimes we fear too much of the future that we doubt the path we are taking. and in moments of despair we turn to God for help. to show us the way to happiness. cos every human being desires to be happy. happiness overrules everything else. it completes life. and every single one of us has the rite to seek happiness. its just that for some, the route to that isnt exactly a very simple one.

but someone told me before that happiness is a choice. and perhaps its true. if perfection makes us happy, then we'd never be happy cos nothing is perfect. perhaps being grateful for what we have is a way to feel happy.

and someone also told me before.. what matters is to have someone who accepts ur flaws.. its easy to appreciate the strengths.. but its tough to accept the weaknesses.. accepting the flaws of a person is one of the greatest strengths which is often overlooked.

and all these while i have been praying to God to show me whats best for me. the signs have prolly been there.. but i mite have been oblivious to them.. as one door closes, the other one opens.. two paths that are entirely different..but it takes my own strength to walk thru that opened door. and it takes my own willingness to discover this new path. it takes my own faith to believe in God's plans for me. and to embrace what fate has led me to.

cos i am only his humble creation. vulnerable to my own emotions. hence i need that pillar of strength. if you are the pillar that's meant for me. let u be the strongest pillar that i can ever find. even if its a pillar with dents, as long as you are there for me to lean on. as long as you are there for me to feel safe. as long as you are there when i need you. as long as you be my source of happiness. i'd embrace u and would never let go.

after all that has been said and done. its time to have faith in reality.

thank you God for making it clear.