i'm so wide awake. must be the teh peng i had.

what do i do when i am wide awake in the middle of the nite?

i surf blogs. i surf facebook. i blog. i think. i ponder. i reminisce. i reflect.

its already mid feb. isnt it fast? lat is getting married in two weeks time. xf in a mths time. syidah in a mth and a half. and me in three mths time.

as i surfed facebook and browsed through my fren's pics, i remembered those days that i just loved taking pics. gone are those days when i was obsessed with the camera. and not just that, apparently, i've sorta gotten over many other things.

i used to bring a cam wherever i go. but now, i dun even knw where my cam is. needless to say, taking pictures.

i used to look at myself in the mirror every time i pass by one. now, i dun even realise theres a mirror.

i used to be so uptite abt my weight. now its one of the last few things on my mind.

i used to worry abt trivial stuffs in life. like pimples, bad hair days, what clothes to wear. now i worry abt things that are seriously worth worrying.

i used to shop every month. its like a monthly routine. monthly splurge. now, i shop randomly. i buy things as and when. and i shop much lesser.

i used to be so sensitive towards what others say. now i dont really care about what people think.

seriously, i dun know how, why and when i sorta 'changed'..but i am asking myself now.. could it be cos i am older now? so i'm less conscious of how others mite perceive me..? and that my priorities have changed cos of the transition i am going through? or is it because a huge part of my world has changed and i have learnt to accept those changes and adapt to them? *shrugs*

anyways, whatever the cause is, i must say that the changes are kinda good changes. i'm becoming a simpler person. not as complicated as before. and a happier one too.

the past few weeks have been so tiring. to and fro the hse to check on the reno.. its taking up quite some time.. tho i do enjoy every single visit and trip. and i must really thank my family for all their help and support all these while. ESPECIALLY my dad. my dad is the greatest. seriously. my mum is super lucky to have found a husband like my dad. he ALWAYS puts family before him. he has been sacrificing so many of his off days just to help my fiance paint the house. and the fact tt he is so enthusiastic abt it! i haven heard him complain the slightlest bit! really appreciates his help and kindness. me and fiance will definitely treat him to a feast when all is done..! hehehe. and i must also thank my mum for the understanding and support. and for letting my dad spends his off days painting! and for all the food she packed for the 'painters'.. hehe.. and MFB, hang in there. i know all our weekends have been used up for domestic chores!! i'm feeling the pinch too. lets get everything done by march holidays k. insyallah.


so craving for a date. movie date. chill bill with ice cream.

the past weekend was so tiring. MFB, dad and bros have all combined their 'powers' to add colours to the house. thank you so much my MEN.. haha... really appreciate all the SWEAT.

i did my part by cleaning up the windows and doors. tho i haven done all of them. its just round ONE. but its VERY tiring ok. SO MUCH DUST. sheesh.

bit by bit. hopefully all goes well.

my heaven on earth. so warm and peaceful.