i hate this part rite here.

a fren of mine gave me a penguin icon on msn. and i love it cos its cute. the penguin looks so sian and was dragging its heavy self to move. like theres no other choice but to just keep on moving.

rite now, i feel exactly like the penguin. except tt its not so cute to be the penguin.

i feel so weak in my knees i can hardly speak. and i am just dreading my way thru. like the penguin.

i need more than medicine. i need more than antibiotics and cough syrup.

sick.

is it worth it?

when yes means no.

sumtimes, short trips to the mall, buying pretty stuffs on impulse can make my day. cos it just did. went out to collect my lens and buy the cd for the wedding songs. ended up buying..

1) notebook with button-y prints from Art Box..apparently to write notes for meetings
2) pearl pink pocket mirror from Art Box..an additional item tt adds to my essentials
3) pretty pink and purple envelopes from Art Box..for special weddings
4) white hand towels from Aussino..for my toilets
5) white bath mats from Aussino..for my toilets again
6) organiser from Times.. its black and boring but its long overdue!!!

and i really really feel like buying the bedspreads from Aussino (again). it was on a good 30% discount! and its so lawa lah. there was this pink and small floral prints.. and another one which was pink with white lilies and nice green fern-like leaves! didnt buy them tho. decided to think first before buying. hahaha. even if i decide to buy, i wont be able to decide if i should get single or queen. argh. kental tau.

so now i am a bit de-stressed. lets get back to work.

i'm wide awake. i cant sleep. and i have class tmr morning. i dun know if i can wake up as early as 7. its almost 4!!

i was bored. read my previous blog posts. from 05 to now. random posts. sigh. i had thots of deleting my blog. but when i read thru some posts just now, i am thinking twice abt it. i cant bear to erase all the entries. spent quite a bit of time blogging fr the past 4 years.

overwhelmed by the amt of things i have to do.

overwhelmed by a mixture of emotions.

overwhelmed by random thots.

today was super productive. accompanied him to service the car. went back to the hse to do some cleaning up. went to decorama in the eve for him to pick the colour. and cleaned up the room at nite.

i feel a tinge of sadness as i was cleaning up. i never knew i love my room this much till half of it is empty. had to throw away so many things. i was kinda put into a time machine as i re-discovered all the junk tt i have kept all these years.. brought me back to the good old days. the teen days rite up to early twenties.. my pink room will soon be gone as it needs a new coat of paint for the wedding.. i know tt the moment its of a different colour, it wouldnt feel the same anymore. its nt just a room. its my space. its my secret hideout. its where i did so many things. its where i hid from everyone and poured my hearts out. its where i can be my very very true self. i didnt realise that my room has been a faithful support in all situations that i went thru. from the blue days to the pink days... it has always been the same four walls..that saw me thru those growing up years..

as i looked back at past pictures, letters, cards, journals, books.. i felt that for one thing i should be thankful for was that i did have a beautiful chapter as i grew up... and what i am more thankful for is that i still have my dear friends with me till now.. i dun have that many friends. but the ones i have, are more than what i can ever ask for.

i guess its getting really near. as i pack my belongings to move on.. to my humble abode.. and to a new beginning.. i'm thrilled. i'm nervous. i'm gg through yet another transition. i pray tt it will be a good one.

the 'holidays' is finally here and i'm sick. argh. wat a sucky way to start it off!

i'm working with a super tight schedule. with stacks of marking to complete. exam papers to set. house to settle. wedding preps to settle. i'm hoping to get everything done by end of this march holidays so that when term 2 starts i wont find myself struggling to multi task. otherwise i mite end up super tired end of may. *boo*

i'm looking forward to..
1) tmr.. *wedding*
2) tues.. *cleaning up and appt with decorama*
3) fri.. *cleaning up again*
4) 23rd March.. *xuefen's wedding*
5) end of March..*BONUS*
6) end of March..*planning for June holidays*
7) 4th April.. *syidah's wedding*
8) 23rd May..*i'd be a MRS*
9) 30th May.. *HOLIDAYS*

i would wana catch up on..
1) shopping *seriously*
2) movie dates

ok firstly, congratulations to lat and suhaimi for tying the knot! very happy for you both.. i take my hats off you guys for all the endurance and faith all those years. god bless you both with love always!

secondly, i am so happy rite now cos i met up with my jc frens at lats wedding. been a long time since i met them..the guys and azmin and taufik especially! amirul looks great with the new haircut. everyones as crappy and fun as ever.. and we took a pic at a super non-glam background. haha. so very the kental. argh. i miss them. i miss us. i miss our jc times. haiz.

chilled with myra and reny after that. it was SO funny! myra is so cute. i didnt know she is THAT funny. hahaha. reny was hot and amusing as usual. had a great great time girls. my god.. i will miss these stuffs when i am married!!

we chatted abt MEN. relationships. dreams. plans. hopes. aspirations. complained quite a bit about this and that too. haha. should do these kinda stuff more often. such a stress reliever.

tmr i will START to clean up my room. and i should write the list of things to do for this march holidays.

tired. sleepy. but happy and rejuvenated. thanks FRIENDS.