pipi...tembam....mr postman.

my strawbag. bored waiting. insomnia. two bucks dangling bits.

oh how great it is to be able to go home early for two days in a row!! the good thing about it is that i can have lunch at home.. and my mum's cooking is way much better than the canteen food in nie!!

i suddenly have this craving for cheese stuff. cheese sticks.cheese frie.3-in-1 cheese pizza.cheesecake.yum yum yum. so....... i went to delifrance to get cheesecake for myself! and a blueverry tart to surprise my mum! cos my darling mum lovesssssssssss delifrance fruit tarts. she was complaining about having to clean up the house all by herself every morning.. so i thought i should make her feel a bit happier by buying her the tart..hehehe.. :)

we have a bridge of love. you guess where.

Mirror mirror on the wall.. who is the prettiest of them all?? hehehe. wait. dont answer. hahaha. ignorance is bliss!!!

pic taken during abang hamza's engagement... awww.. dont we look so sweeeeet in baju kurung!!

mwah.

 

its interesting how friends come and go...

I was greeted by a pleasant surprise when i logged onto my comp thhis afternoon.. i had a message from someone called 'Anggun' in friendster.. so as usual, i checked. and guess what??? or guess who??? its my primary school mate Raudhah!! gosh, its been ages since we keep in touch. i dont know what ever happened between us. But we kinda bumped into each other a couple of times yet neither acknowledged each other. and apparently we just found out that we both were sora doubtful. Anyway, its nice to hear from her... we exchanged numbers! cool.

The engagement went smoothly.. *Smilez*..abang hamza looked sooo happy. heh. i would be too if it was me!!! met my cuzzies just now! yay! had a fun time taking pics with my relatives in my graduation gown.. kak mazna just graduated too.. so we had a combined photo taking!

oh one more thing... i saw farisha's bday pix just now!!!!!!!! gosh. i almost lost my appetite looking at the pics of me dancing and stuffz. there was this shot that i looked like i was doing pole dance. and my dress was bloody short!! goodness. how embarassing!! me and suzie wanted to hide the pics but bik imah didnt let!! she even said she will put it up on her blog! please dont!!

suzie showed me pics of elysha. she is soooooooooo cute and pretty!!! if she is my daughter, i would show her off to the whole wide world!!! she is simply adorable!!! you just wana kidnap her and have her for urself!!! heh.. guess i have to wait for my own little princess!

i tried a kebaya and this beautiful piece i tailored for kak maszuins wedding two years back.. guess what. i cant fit into them anymore!!!!! i really love that beautiful piece. my first nicely fit piece! and i spent quite a bit on it. and i only gt to wear it three times. the wedding and twice for hari raya. the kain got stuck at my hips!!!! cant even get through!!! the last time i tried it on, i could wear it... but i couldnt walk nor breathe. now, i cant even wear it!!!! i have GROWN!!!!
hahahaha...

i'm happy cos everyone is happy.. :)

my mum made me eat papayas today. i ended up going to the toilet 4 times!!! sheesh.

i am so wide awake right now. didnt know the coffee will be so effective!! been a long time since i took coffee..but i was so 'gatal' that i made myself a mug. i only used half a sachet and drank a quarter of the mug. yet i am SUPER awake. goodness. this is ridiculous. well, at least i got to finish up my problem based learning assignment. hehehe. *phew*

tuition AGAIN tomorrow. four times this week!! only because she has two tests coming up and its kinda late notice. i suck at matrices and i think my tutee knows that. hah. i need a break from tuition once she finishes her testS.

pipi is feeling so much better now. yay!

Abang Hamza is finally getting engaged tomorrow. gosh.. i still remember the silly old days when he makes me and my other cousins play club soldiers!!! and kak awin will always be his wife while me suzie and marlin be the kids!!! and somehow the whole family forms club soldiers. the irony is we arent even the soldiers. haha. the soldiers were ayul and my bro muhadher. hahahaha. and i still remember abg hamza always make us do stupid things like drink yucky soup and say nonsense things like EMBOK. what the hell. club soldiers remind me of the corridor of my late grandma's old house..gosh.. that was where me and my cuzzies play 'mak-mak', 'masak-masak', model-model..we'll pretend that the corridor is a three storey bungalow!! my grandma stayed at the fifth floor.. so we will use the fifth floor as the living room, fourth floor as our basement and kitchen and the sixth floor as the bedrooms!! haha. that was where me and suzie and marlin always fight!! lemme share some stuff with you all..

suzie was such a wet blanket when she was small!! she is always jealous of me and marlin!! and she will call us shortie when she loses any games!! hmpf. me and marlin then will call her kembang!! hehehe. marlin being the eldest always try to make peace. she will threaten us that she wont come to granny's house if we quarrell!! and it always werked!! all three of us are always being compared by our aunts and uncles!! who is the prettiest or cutest or tallest or shortest or reach puberty first!! even now they always ask who will marry first!! and all of us will point fingers. hehehe.

talk about cousins.. i have an interesting and fun childhoosd thanks to my many many cousins. my mum's family is quite big so its really 'happenning' or should i say chaotic..heh. my dad's family is smaller and less wild! plus, on my dad's side, theres very few gurls! its boy dominated and i always cant join in their fun!

oh well.. those were the days.. now the stage belongs to the two clans.. amirul-faris-raihan-azhari and haziq-farisha-hariza-hazira.. hehehe.. we cant possibly be seven all the time!! but sometimes i do wish that i am just a child. growing up is not easy. especially now that i am more of a young adult! not even a teenager anymore!! boo.

okiez.. i better try to sleep or something!

I miss pipi. Get well soon ok.

Met my gals for dinner at chai chee seafood restaurant at tampines.... had a great time chatting with my angels over a plate of yummy fried kway teow with cockles!!!!!! i like! Euni and shaq could finally join us!!! *big hug* good to know that everyone is doing fine.. *smilez*.. here's some updates..

Reny is still as hot as ever.. hehe.. i love your watch babe. SOOOO nice. *good taste izad*
Xuefen is more adventurous cos her loops are bigger now!! and she watches 'Lost'! hehehe..
Syidah is such a doll...you look good in your new hairstyle dear!
Euni is so cute lah.. with her 'pomp' gesture when she ordered her drinks..
Shaq looks so calm despite the stress she and euni are going through with the honors course..
Nad did a perfect impersonation of a fish being sliced alive!

So sad Khai couldnt make it cos of her tuition ... baya had already made other plans.... and fa had last minute meeting with her boss.. Hope you girls can join us for the next group hang!

Girls..i love each and everyone of you ok.. *mwahhhhhh*

When you are far, i want you close
When you are close, i want you more
Cos its with you that i feel right
And its just you i wana hold tight..

I cant describe this feeling.. its warm and fuzzy and makes me tingle..
He's on my mind every single second of the day and all the time i am just wishing that he's here..
I think of him when i wake up..wonder if he is still messing up the bed..
I think of him during my long train rides..of how he sleeps in the train and nudges the person beside him..
I think of him when i queue up for food.. of his favourite dishes..
I think of him when i lay on my bed..if he's in his favourite 'pyjamas'..
I think of him all the time.. thinking if he is thinking of me too..
I love him. Yes i do.
So much. Yes so much.

i'm hungry. really hungry.

my boyfriend is watching soccer. fahmi, u are doing a great job.

my family is at east coast. with my dinner.hmpf.

poshie in the house!! hehehe..

hey booble... i am feeling super thrilled that poshie can talk to u already!! hehe.

yesterday me, vanessa and prameeta went bugis to shop.. the gals were sooooo sweet..they bot me a charm bracelet just because i said its nice!! sweet rite.... *five points for u gals* i am so touched and truly appreciate it! mwah.
this guy frm ntuc income approached me at the mrt station to ask if i am interested to work with his company.. and this was a bit of the conversation:

Salesman: hey... i approached u cos u are young and i like ur ceramic curls..
Me: ceramic curls??? *blur look*
Salesman: yeah.. *looks at my hair*
Me: Oh.. you mean my hair.. heh.. i didnt perm it.. its natural.. *blush*
Salesman: Bluff lah..

hmm. second time in the week.. few days back a classmate asked something similar..

classmate: hey do u have to curl ur hair everyday when u wake up..
me: no...
classmate: u dont need to apply cream or serum??
me: no..
classmate: how much ah u paid for ur curls?

hmm. *smilez?*

farisha had her 8th bday party at coasta sands east coast just now. it was a blast! the emcee was soooo happening that in the end, three units combined to form one big party!!! and guess what... i had to dance in front of everyone!! *thanks to farisha who saboed me* thank god shasha and suzie were in the game too. yeah so basically we had to dance. but they played a fast and sexy song.. so there i was..shaking my ass!! gosh.. sooo embarassing! and we had to do it one by one!!! 'solo' performance! and after that game, my aunts frens who know me through wedding exhibitions were like "wah..look innocent only..but..uhm uhm"..heh.

my hope: everyone at the party, please delete 'me dancing' from your memory.

had lotsa yummy food.. i like.

miss my bf so much. poor pipi.. he's not been feeling well..get well soon dear.

poshie's first appearance in booble.

"I want a popular face" - MTV. Have u ever watched this show?? go catch it once if u havent. i think its on wednesdays at 10.30, MTV.

The things people do just to look like a celebrity. Just now was an episode about this gal called Jenee who wanted to look like this celebrity called Tiffany. I have no idea who Tiffany is tho! hahaha.. k thats not the point. The point is, Jenee paid 13000 bucks to get breast implants and liposuction at her tummy, butt and thighs. Gosh.. u should see how bloody the whole process was!!!! so grosssssssss!!!! * puke puke puke* made me wonder what is freaking wrong with these people. i mean hello.. cmon.. whats the big deal abt looking like a celebrity...??!!! I wouldnt want a popular face. I would rather be popular with MY own face. hee. *yah riteee*

Had my NKF health screening just now. Results were fine.. thank god.. my BMI is 19.6! no more underweight! yay. oh yah.. my weighing scale at home shows 41.5 AFTER meal. the weighing scale at the screening shows 42.3 BEFORE meal!!! hahaha.. i have been cheated by the weighing scale at home! oh and my blood pressure is normal! pipi went for it too. his waist to hip ratio is damn good lah. hehehe. curvier than me! hmpf. *not fair* his cholestrol level is lower too!! *so exercising really makes a difference*.. hehehe.. anyway, bottom line is: EXERCISE 3-5 TIMES A WEEK. hehehehe.

i am so tired. so sleepy. but theres readings!!! boo. ok ok.. better get going.. cheerio!

Make way.. make way.. cos my new baby is here. it's a she. Poshie is her name.

May poshie bring me happiness and be a good baby for a long long time. *smilez*

I am so glad prameeta, vanessa and deepa are in the same course as me. We foursome are practically together all the time. heh. two tall gurls and two not-so-tall gurls. *heh* despite the height difference, we four can click real well!! we love pink and all the oh-so-gurlish stuff! we are forever waiting for pay day to shop..and we are always commenting on each other's stuffz like tops, earrings, bags, necklace, bangles, sandals, skirts.. and the list goes on!! i cant wait for friday cos the fantastic four are going to bugis to shop!!!! woohoo!!! bonding time!!! i like!

i'm so glad my martian is out of the cave. dont worry my man. cos i'm here waiting for you with love. *big hug*

I only have ten minutes to write in today's entry cos mr boyfriend is waiting.

Khairun called. Its so good to hear her voice after soooo long. i miss her so much. thanks khai for calling *one point*

Me and Nur went for NTUMS appreciation tea. we thot it was purely for ledang quest peepz. turned out to be for many other events that NTUMS had organized. In the end, Ledang wasnt even mentioned cos it wasnt really under NTUMS. gosh! we felt super extra! but its allrite.. met some old frens.. just managed to smile tho. heh.

Met pipi after that.. he is still cutely in the goggles.. i prefer u without. and i know u know that. had a great time with him. as always. heh. isrida sells real kinki thongs! hahahaha. i finally bought a flower scarf for my bag!! yay!!

Met Kelvin at orchard!! he cycled all the way from tampines! wow. i am amazed. he was with another biology teacher. that amazed me more! i can prolly join the gang once i am certified by MOE. hehe. how cute!

Met pipi's parents on the way back home. pipi's mum gave me flowers!!! awwww.... pipi's dad asked about school and my dad. heh.

ok ten minutes is up. all in all, it was a great sat!!

Every woman wants to look beautiful.

Correction.

Every woman wants to feel beautiful.

And you make me feel beautiful. and i love you for that.

Two things make my day today..
1)Pipi bought me a sweet watch from his one-day-KL-adventure trip. *thank you*
2)Vanessa messaged me this " hey faz i dunno why but i think you're really a great friend!" *big big hug to you gurl..*

Its these small things that make me happy. *smilez*

ok ok. i know. i promised to sleep. but i am not. i tried to. i swear i tried. but gosh.. i was just turning and tossing with my eyes closed but my mind was super awake!

god bless the guy who invented the internet. without the net, i dunno what i'll be doing. the net is like the alternative to almost everything. if u can't afford to buy cd, download. If you miss OC or desperate housewives, download. If u cant meet for group discussion, go msn. if you are bored and cant sleep for nuts, just get onto the net and there will surely be something to entertain you. like blog. like me. like now. heh.

maybe i'm in high spirits cos its national day..??!! cant be. i am not that enthusiastic. *oops* but i cant wait for shooting stars tmr.. and some good shows on tv.

non verbal cues. most of the time it sucks. It makes me all paranoid.. all the MORE paranoid. boo. i feel so boo.

boo number 1: its the time of the month. its always a valid reason to feel boo.

boo number 2: its still not resolved.

boo number 3: three ppl said i lost weight. skinny and small.

boo number 4: my comp kept hanging. like almost all the time.

boo number 5: there was no dinner.

so five boos are way more than enough to convince myself that its ok that i feel lousy. its valid. its reasonable.

i haven got my baju raya. not even the kain. nor a tailor. gosh. now thats boo number 6 already. anyone has a good tailor?? not too pricey tho.. i want someone who can sew fitting kebaya. heh.

ok i am tired. wow. at least now i am tired. but still not sleepy.

We were missing each other so much and we were broke.. so...

solution: PICNIC!!

where: East Coast

when: evening

type: pot luck

outcome: 5 stars!!

Remarks: Highly recommended for an intimate chill out session with your loved ones!!

Boo boos: Some of the angels werent there.. would have been complete if syidah, euni, khai and baya came..

Pic 1 (above): Thats me and my self made 'Italiano Potato Gratino'..heh.. yum yum.. i like..they like.. we all like!!

Pic 2: Prawn crackers sponsored by xuefen..

Pic 3: I look like i have a high head.. I like Xuefen's bright blue bikini..and reny got scratched by her beloved brownie..
Pic 4: Going home time.. with a very satisfied feeling.. cos we had such a great time!!

the flame was once so strong
without fail it burned and kept us warm
i thought ours was exceptional
without a doubt you are special
but now the flame seems to fade away
you no longer say you miss me everyday
deep in my heart i have so much to say
but somehow words dont seem to come my way
where did i go wrong
oh please tell me
cos i wana make it right to make it strong

I want the flame to forever keep us warm
The flame of a beautiful friendship
The friendship of my life

Communication Skills module was superb. My tutor is super happening. i think he is bibik belacan who starred in rara show ages ago..!! not very sure but gosh.. he's one good actor and a very entertaining tutor. The power of voice. And i had to embarass myself in his class just now...

We were told to do some 'freeing' of the voice just now.. i believe i was doing it correctly until i saw him looked at me. i suddenly became so conscious and i stopped the 'freeing of the voice'.. and instead i kinda burst into a smile??!! immediately he said " this is not a pretty class.. " gosh. i wonder what he meant. I must have given him a totally vain impression. and the second time i kinda screwed up was when he told us to say "today is a wonderful day" as we yawn!! somehow.. i just couldnt yawn!! and the fact that he was looking just made it more difficult!! so he pointed me out again "you are not doing it" .. sigh.. looks like i need to put in extra effort to change his impression of me!!

It feels like forever since i last blogged.. oh well prolly cos theres been so many things i wanted to share but somehow i couldnt find the time or energy to do it..

First off.. from where i left.. weekends was occupied with my exhibition job..gosh it was damn tiring!! my cuzzin looked so drop dead gorgeous as a bride..model bride i mean.. heh. Suzie i so envy you!! You are sooo lucky to be able to syiok sendiri with the beautiful gown which is soooo siti nurhaliza like! Made me wonder how i will look in MY wedding gown.. hahaha. well one thing for sure, mine will have to have its motif at the top part cos the bottom part would prolly have to be altered cos of my height!!!

Rima Melati looks pretty off screen.

Proper lessons had started and gosh theres a lot of ssignments coming up.. i see signs of stress pimples coming out already!! theres a particular essay that i have to werk on and its called ' Microchip Implantation '.. gosh. its on the bioethics of that. Microchip??? Me??? i'm such a bimbo in that department.. i'm soo gonna have to werk my ass off for this essay. its 80 percent mind you. do or die. make or break.

School has been ok so far.. besides the assignments part.. been making friends..the ppl there are warm and frenly.. so that really helps! miss my gurls all the time tho.. every second of the day..*big hug* I had a good so called dinner with the group of funky malay teachers at banquet.. you should see these gals man.. they are really hip malay teachers!! i like!!!

I love my mum. She's so sweet. Told her about me waking up with bumps on my neck and face and back almost every morning.. the next thing i knew when i got back was that my mattress had been thrown away..and there it was.. a new mattress on my bed all nice in the quilt cover set she bought for my 20th birthday!! aww.. and she posted letters for me too!! *kiss* mum's always the best!

something funny happened in class just now. the tutor told muhamad to spell out his email addy.. and it happened to be called PANTATJACK.. hahaha.. he was like P...A..N..T...A...T.. then the tutor pronounced it as 'pen-that'.. hahahaha.. she's a chinese.. hence she didnt understand what it meant!! then muhamad gave up and just offered to write it out instead.. the malay students were laffing like crazy!! hahahaha.. btw.. for the non malays out there.. pantatjack = jack ass! hehehe.. now u know why i think its funny!!

anyways me and pipi had a great pizza binge ytd.. and a really fantastic time just talking and talking.. hehe..

cant wait for my fujitsu.

cant wait for my pay.