i am supposed to be sleeping rite now. but i cant and i decided to just hop in for a while.

i'm nervous abt tmr. its finally here.

for all my frens who wished me luck, thanks. your support is greatly appreciated.

compassvale.. here i come. *winks*

me and pipi had such a fantastic time ytd. finally, after what seemed like forever, he's back. yay. i'm so happy that i finally got my skirts! hooray!

three more days. and my life would be an express train.

i shall endure.

i must smile everyday. i must celebrate small successes. i must believe in myself. i must live up to my potential. i must not change. i must love my life. i must be thankful for what God has blessed me with. i must start from now.

when a vain pot gets obsessed with the camera..


*winks*

oh gosh.. its monday!! the most dreaded last week of holidays is here.. arghhhhhh. werk is about to start. oh man.. i must boost myself up already!! been so used to slacking away!

i need a shopping spree before i start werk! cant wait for pipi to come back. my best shopping partner. hehe.

things i need to get:

1) a new organiser / notebook
2) stationaries
3) food to stock up at my table
4) skirts! *since last time seh..haiz!*

it was such a relaxing sunday.

brought my beloved mum and dad to Sofra for a father's day and belated mother's day treat. hehe.. not too bad.. quite nice.. but the most important thing is that they had a great time. and i think they did cos they love the food. yay! i feel so happy cos now that i am working, i can bring my parents out to restaurants. tho it may not be a high class restaurant, well, i guess i always have to start from the bottom rite! heh.

after the yummy lunch we went to my aunts place. me and my bro chilled at the pool and swam a few laps.. we were yakking more than we were swimming. haha. ate quite a lot after that cos there was just too many good stuffz at my aunt's. as always. somehow her place has this hotel kind of feeling. awesome ambience, beautiful deco and perfect service! best kan.. i like!

we stayed till one am! watched one and a half matches before my aunt 'rang the bell' for us to go home. haha. thats how it werks in my family. we 'ring the bell' to tell that we are sleepy and that guests should go home. haha. oh well.. i actually brought along my school handbook to read up at her house.. but .. yah rite!! all i did was eat and watch tv! so much so for reading up.

i feel quite sad actually cos the date with the girls didnt happen. sigh. everyone's so busy with their own lives.... i kinda missing the good ol' days.. was hoping i could spend the weekend with them cos i'd start werk soon and i knw i wont have much time once i do. oh well. maybe another time i guess.

i cant wait for bf to come home. missing him.

go brazil. weeweet.

what a boring saturday without pipi around. sigh.

went for kima's engagement just now. a simple yet sweet affair. kim, u were such a hyper bride!! still can talk on the hp!! sheesh. anyway, u looked good babe. hehe. congratulations to u and adil! may the engagement bring the two of u closer than ever before. insya'allah.

i just cleaned up my room. ever since i brought home the pile of textbooks, i just could not be bothered to neaten up my room. haha. but thank god i finally dragged my lazy ass out of bed to clear up the book-mess. haha. so now that my room is neat, i should be able to start work. *argh* no more excuses for me.

things to read up on *by tuesday* :

1) science dept handbook
2) school handbook
3) lower sec S.O.W
4) lower sec textbooks
5) bio S.O.W
6) bio textbook
7) chem S.O.W
8) chem textbook

oh what a long list. good luck to me.

my family is back!! yayness!! with all the joy, i wanted to fetch them at the airport yesterday. so before anything else, i went to the petrol station to top up the tank. hehe.. i drove so much while they were away that it was almost empty. so there u go.. my first time topping up petrol. and it was smooth! yay!! ok, so, feeling contented, i made my way to the airport.

pipi told me that i should keep rite the moment i entered the airport expressway. i did. but, the wrong 'expressway'!! so.... i ended up at changi village!!!!! so off track from the changi airport ok!! for a minute i was a bit frustated cos pipi wasnt specific to a blur sotong like me! but, after figuring out my way, i realised tt getting lost is a good thing. cos then i learn to read signs! haha. and i also managed to get to the terminal two carpark!! hey, thats an achievement ok!

anyways, i am just really glad and relieved that my family is back. safe and sound. i love them so much. miss them a lot!! they had so many funny stories to share.. especially about my mum and her kanchiong-ness. haha. i think my mum passed down that kanchiong trait to me too. :P

my mum is so sweet. she bot stuffz for pipi. i didnt expect it at all. hehe.

pipi is gg to KL tmr. all the way till tuesday! sigh.. so used to having him ard almost everyday. anyways i will just make use of this free time to chill with my gfs and start preparing for work! brought home so many textbooks. supposed to read thru but i havent even touched them! argh... still in a holiday mood!!! totally and completely!!

anyways, i finally checked my NIE results! all cleared!! alhamdulillah. just waiting for the official graduation ceremony before i can call myself a full pledged teacher! now i am just a pseudo teacher. haha.

its already friday. this weekend is prolly the last weekend i can enjoy before werk starts. i'm kinda anxious. i know its gona be tough. confirm. chop. guarantee. firstly, i have to readapt to a new environment. secondly, i have to readjust to a new hectic schedule. thirdly, theres gona be much much more responsibilites for me. so rite now, i'm trying to prepare myself mentally to be ready for a high stress level. whatever it is, i have promised myself that i would:

1) NOT skip my meals
2) keep my friday nites free
3) spend time with boyfriend on saturdays
4) spend time with family on sundays
5) continuously pray to God for strength

i need to always be:

1) optimistic
2) motivated
3) reassured

lets hope with all these 'measures', i can survive. hehe.

while pipi was unpacking the tent..
while pipi was setting up the tent... haha..and yes.. the wind and sun was in my face!

lunch at Tekka! wah my first time there.. so jakunz!

fresh in the morning..

about to drive! snap once..

ok now without the flash...

It was a great day. spent it with boyfriend and the car. hehe. today was the first time i drove my bf. i think i passed the test but with some scary moments. haha. now boyfriend doesnt want to be my passenger anymore. haha. good. so you can be the driver dear. its all yours.

went to little india to have some indian food.. now i knw how to get to serangoon area. oh wow. as if i always go there. haha. after lunch we headed for east coast to just laze and chill. weather was fantastic but nothing beats the company! we strolled along the beach...pretending its maldives!! * sooooo maldives huh *

we ended the day with a yummy yummy dinner at simpang bedok. i'm so happy that i ate a lot just now! hehe..

so, all in all, it was such best day!!! thank you dearie for spending it with me!

cant wait for my family to come back tmr!!

ola.. i'm back!! oh man.. i miss booble!! its so late rite now.. i am supposed to be sleepy and sleeping and resting.. but here i am.. blogging! oh well! hmm.. where shall i start?? ok first things first. the kids camp.

the kids camp was really fun!! my group was called galileo.. three gals and six boys.. they are all soooo adorable!! ten to twelve year olds. each and everyone of them had an interesting character. had a real great time with them! but it was really tiring beb... with all the walking and running and the ultra lack of sleep! my whole body ached on the first nite. it was so sad when we were abt to part.. every farewell is like that.. having done three kids camp before, i told myself not to cry this time around.. but of cos... i shd have known myself better.. the moment they played the farewell song, i started to 'rain'. *paiseh*

i love kids a lot. marlin thinks i love entertaining them. i told her that its not i who entertain them.but THEY entertain me!! seriously.. these kids.. tho young.. the stuffz that comes out from their mouth is just so hilaroous ok! u'd be surprised at the way they think!! heh.

tho sumtimes i dread the thot of having to clear my volunteer hours, now that i think abt it, i shd be THANKFUL that i owe mendaki those hours. kids camps is really a wonderful experience. if u love kids that is. hehe.

ok anyways, the farewell kinda put me in a sad mode.. and the fact that i had to rush frm NTU to airport to send my family off to australia, it made me feel worse. i couldnt help but teared when i salam and hugged my family at the gate. i was already missing them in camp.. yet they are leaving for australia the day i came back from camp. i dunno how suzie did it when she bid her family goodbye before leaving for Dubai. haiz. anyways, i still am missing my family. my dad's fon is switched off. so i cant reach them and that sux. i wana knw how they are doing and i just wana hear frm them. i hope they are safe and sound and enjoying themselves.

had a long day just now. woke up early to report to school. finally i have my OWN table! felt sooo happy to see it. my tiny workspace. gona beautify it and personalize it. must make it as ME as possible. so all the junk that i have at home would go there. haha. oh and i saw my pigeon hole too. with my name on it. hehe. for a moment i felt a certain happiness when i saw it. prolly more like disbelief that its happening. my childhood dream. hehe.

went to NTU aft that to give my bf some support for his exhibition. a fine display of talent and skills i must say. i was really impressed at what my bf's group did. amazing man.. the stuffz engineers do. so cool..!! congrats guys fr doing a splendid job!

suzie is leaving tmr. her ten day stay in spore went by so fast. thank god me and marlin got a chance to meet up with her just now. we went to our aunts condo to chill by the pool. met at 10pm and bonded till 1am..wish we could spend more time together..! it felt good catching up with them..tho i had nothing THAT interesting to tell. haha... suzie had a lot of stories tho. hehe. but its ok.. we have been waiting for her to come back and share it all with us!! i'm so happy that my cousin is still the same ol' kuzzy that i knw. i'm glad u havent changed much dear.. hehe. remain that way k. mwah.

ok so here are some pics taken thruout the day.. enjoyz!

the four cousins doing their tradmark pose. haha

we tried soooo hard to get a decent picture which includes all of us.

random posing..

the most decent shot.

me and marlin jer ...

pipi's group prjoject work..congrats boys!






two more weeks of holidays. argh.

happy and full after the good breakfast provided by nie.. while waiting for the talk to start.. snap snap.

me and van while waiting for lunch to be served. hungry hungry hippo!!

i bot a pair of shoes again today!! *faints* but it was a good buy seriously. *smiley face*

so no more shoes for me. dun need pants too cos i bot quite a lot before my practicum and i bet they can last me for quite some time. haha.

i have a tuition marathon tmr before i go for my camp in the evening. its so late now and i have yet to pack my bag! according to the camp checklist, theres like 1001 things to bring!!! i think i will only pack tmr. after all my tuition!

theres gona be LOTS of walking fr this camp. oh man... now i'm nt so enthusiastic anymore. haha. i'm gona be sooooo tanned by sunday! and with all the running and chasing after the kids i bet i will lose some grams too! sigh. i really hope it would be fun!! hopefully can learn a lot from the camp and make some friends too. been quite a while.

i ate a lot today. hah.

went window shopping with van, pram and deepa. we agreed that if we four were to go bangkok together, we would need an extra person just to carry our shopping bags!! one person buys shoes, everyone buys shoes. haha. good thing we all have very similar taste!

i spent my day at the sungai gedong camp.. hehe.. supposed to be an enrichment kind of visit for us teachers.. something to do with national education..

i had quite a lot of fun actually!! saw some of the army tanks.. even got a chance to hop on it and have a feel of what its like to be inside these tanks. heh. oh and besides that, i held a real gun!! for the first time in my life!! quite heavy huh!! and yeah i had some hands on with a riffle too. hehe. coolness.

so thats me inside a broncho. * i think that's what it's called and that's how it's spelled*

me and van with the soldier hats during the joyride... yeah we were driven one round of the camp area in one of the big army tanks.. quite scary for a first time. bumpy!! haha..doncha think we look like turtles?? hehe..

me in another one of the tanks.. this one is quite cool cos the driver's seat is like in a tiny tiny cubicle.. and van took this pic while she was standing up and ON the tank!! haha.. and all i had to do was look up and say cheeeeeeseeeeeee..!!

me and van in the broncho.. its auto by the way!! haha..

so hows that for a change?? haha.. me in millitary setting.. *yah rite*.. cannot make it !!

anyway, guess what. i'm supposed to get a working bag and skirts. ended up buying a dress and shoes instead!! thats soooo off-track!! haiz. and i was not even supposed to shop till i get my next pay!! tsk tsk. noti noti.

i was thinking abt when i shd start looking for cloth to make my hari raya outfit. now that i am pretty free, i shd do stg abt it! not sure what colour to go for this year.. feel like having soft baby pink.. something sweet and princessy.... hehe.. and prolly a rich deep maroon.. been wanting these colours since like forever.. but always ended up with stg else. this year must be more focused! by the way, anyone has a good tailor to recommend me?? i need a really good one cos the shape of my body is 'one of a kind'! i'm serious... up till now only ONE tailor could do it nicely for me.. but i had some other issues with her.. thats why now i need a new tailor!! but even that tailor agreed that its not easy to make my fit. haiz!! tough luck!

 

 

 

 

some random pics taken yesterday.... testing my digi cammie.. hehe

did i tell you that my car got banged on the way to mas engagement? so now my family is car-less for four days! sigh.

pics at mas engagement.. the first occassion taken by my new baby.. hehe..mas, this entry is for you. hehe.

what her fiancee gave her..

 the 'bride' and her galfrens and their boyfriends.. haha

their engagement cake..

what she gave him..

i cried my heart out. i slept my misery away.

i am telling you that i hate my pms. it sucks big time. i get ultra ultra sensitive and super duper petty.

but today i woke up feeling better. much better than yesterday. so lets hope it stays this way.

mas had her engagement ytd.. grand affair i must say.. hehe.. congrats mas.. i'm glad tt everything went smoothly for you.. may u and fiancee find eternal bliss together.. insyallah.

i'm having my pms. watched OC for a while just now. first season. repeat telecast. and i cried so bad. *boo kan*

i spent my day with pipi. had a great time just walking around aimlessly and slowly.. pipi was slightly quiet today.. but i kinda like it. haha.

bumped into suzie and shah just now. we couldnt recognize each other! i looked at her. she looked at me. and then there was just this weird moment. haha. she said she couldnt recognize me cos i am so thin now. *terribly upset* and i guess for me, its not that i couldnt recognize her.. perhaps its bcos my brain still thinks she is in dubai at the moment. hehe. anyway it was good to bump into her. she looks as gorgeous as ever!

anyway, i'm really upset with all the comments abt me being too thin now. its really irritating me. i'm sick of hearing the same thing over and over again. THIN. LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT. SMALL. argh. like hello. its bad enough i'm naturally small. dont have to tell me that i'm getting smaller. it sucks ok. i'm really getting too many of these things that it makes me feel pathetic. fugly. you know what i mean? argh. totally at a low self esteem rite now. the pms is not helping either.

i just wana be alone. in my own world. where i entertain my own thots and live my own dreams.

i checked out the levis jeans.. the one with the embedded swarovski crystals. the skirt itself is 249 bucks!! dono how much the jeans would be! *faints*. way too expensive. way beyond what i can afford!! haiz... think now i just WISH harder. again. haha.

btw, actually i think the crystals is gona make it a bit troublesome to wash isnt it.. not very appropiate for rugged wear! * or am i just trying to comfort myself*

no more shopping at the moment. big hole in the pocket already!

 my new baby. * i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* haha.. i hope it wont disappoint me!

 

phew. all my tuition kids have agreed on the slots that i suggested to them.. yay. no more headaches. just a bit packo. oh, and theres a direct bus from my school to my tuition kids' place! yay.. so relieved!

i am gg to the pc fair tomorrow to check out the digicams.. my dear fren.. i thot u were just going to SURVEY the prices.. then VOILA.. bought one already!! really didnt wait for me eh! hehe. i bet you are soooo happy now.. well, actually i am planning to use my July bonus to buy the digicam.. but the pc fair ends this sunday!! haha. so i guess i have to get it first? hahaha. either buy now and get it cheaper. or buy later at a higher price. so, yeah. kwakwakwa.

due to my tuition schedule, i think i am going to miss this season of singapore idol!! so sad! i was such a taufik fanatic last season. couldnt even miss one episode! and of cos.. the countless sms votes!! haiz.. anyways i think the guy with the slanted hair is outstanding in his own ways. and for the girls.. i remember the rahimah rahim only.. hehehe... thanks to her name!

i hope my family decides to go to KL and genting for the hols. hehe. so that i can still buy my digicam without feeling like i am spending too much! cos if they were to go elsewhere, tix would cost ard 1K!! wah.. like that i would have an ultra big hole in my pocket!!! such a heart pain!

a close fren of mine is getting engaged this sat. i still remember how she, me and my other two buddies always teased each other on who is gona get married first. in fact i remember that for one of the bday celebrations, we went to beach and had a conversation abt it. we made a deal that who gets married first would have to jump on the pelamin. haha... looks like i'm spared.

i kinda gt excited when i think abt her engagement. suddenly i find myself imagining if I am the one who is getting engaged!! haha.. so nerve wrecking isnt it!! oh well... i have this strange feeling that i'd be the last to settle down amongst the four of us!! so sad!! then u all would come to my wedding with ur HUSBAND. then cannot kecoh kecoh!! *hmpf*

its already june. how time flies. i guess the second half of the year is gona be more 'happening'. firstly, my career as a full-pledged teacher would kick off the second half of 2006. and that alone is enough to hypen things up!! then there would be the fasting month ..the Hari Raya.. the oh-sooooo-many IMPORTANT birthdays.. my anniversary with him.. and insyallah the dec holiday to Melbourne..!! wah... i think i'm gona need LOADS of money for this coming 'semester'... hehe.. sorry man.. cant help but use the word 'semester'.. cheacher mah... *so ah-soh* hahaha..

think i need to start to save MORE already!!! haha. how i wish money can just fall from the sky! rite. wish hard fazleen. real hard. haiz... talk about wishing.. my wishlist is just growing longer and longer! wana see?

my WISH list..
1) levis jeans.. (the one with the embedded swarovski crystals)
2) a digital camera
3) a Guess handbag
4) a ladies watch
5) a pair of pink adidas sports shoes
6) a condo ( when oh when..)
7) a husband!! (one who can drive me ard.. *HINT HINT*)
8) a trip to Melbourne

oh man... i just realised that next week will be damn packed for me!! argh....!! i have a couple of enrichment courses to attend... * in preparation to be a full-pledged teacher * .. but tts not the issue. becos i am gg for a 4D 3N camp, my thurs to sun is totally booked! that leaves me mon to wed to squeeze in ALL my tuitions on top of the courses!!! ahhhhhhh.... how!! * headache*

ok actually i have came up with a schedule for the busy week. just tt rite now i cant confirm if its agreeable by ALL my tuition kids. haha. please give way to ur tutor for this one time. hehe.

i'm so looking forward to the camp cos its been a while since i facilitated a KIDS camp. the last camp i did was the Ledang Quest.. but that was with the 'happening' teenagers!! i miss the cute and chubby little kids... tts why i'm kinda excited for the coming camp! hehe.. so kids... come to mama! haha. rite.

the news finally announced how much the civil servants are getting this july!! its more than last year cos of the better economic growth! so yay! half month bonus with an additional of 220 bucks!! so yeah.. i'm smiling cos its more than last july. Last july was 0.4 months plus 200 bucks..

i also worked out my supposed 'working schedule' to have a general idea of what time i should knock off on certain days and which nites would be occupied.

so, the verdict is... i'm free on... :
1) thurs nite
2) fri nite
3) sat after 12pm
4) sun after 11 am

yay!! not too bad rite?? haha.. yes yes.. i knw some of you have much more free time than i do! and yes i am jealous! haha.. but what to do.. i'm sacrificing some of my free time to earn more. *winks* hehe. but yeah.. of cos not to the point that i wont have time for myself AT ALL. hence the planning of 'timetable' and the free-ing up of slots. haha. i'll try my best to cope. Dear God, do give me the strength, health and motivation. Insyallah.

oh.. and yes.. i am also planning to dedicate my free slots to something..
1) thurs nite - religious classes
2) fri nite - chill out with gfs
3) sat - exercise, retail therapy and chill out with bf
4) sun - family time

the above suggestions are of course under the most ideal conditions. i know when i start work, there would be a lot of challenges and a struggle for time. but, i guess the first step in dealing with it is to come up with a schedule tt i would be comfortable with. and i just did. hope everything would fit together!! if it doesnt, then i have to ADOPT and ADAPT! * touch wood*