prolly this is God's way of showing me some light. the path to love. the one person who has stood by me. in good times and bad times. the one person who has enough patience and has shown me his sincerity throughout. cos your strength outshines your weaknesses. it is not without challenges that we have reached this far. but i'm glad we did. everytime that i feel i'm losing it, God gives me the faith once again. One way or another, i always find myself running back to you. cos i cant imagine life without you.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
i am so blardy angry at myself. thanks to my carelessness, i got to fork out 162 bucks. ARGH. someone please slap me. punch me. whack me. kick my butt. what happened? I FORGOT TO SWITCH OF MY HEADLIGHTS. darn. battery went flat overnight. feeling super pathetic. and what sux is.. i just got my bonus! and i practically threw away 162 bucks. JUST LIKE THAT. i could have bot a nice diamond pendant. or a wallet. or shoes. because it is MY fault, the anger is excruciating. eeeeeeeeee.... GERAMMMMMMMM.. ARGH.
so now i promise tt i will ALWAYS check EVERYTHING before i leave.
urgh... i swear this will put me in a foul mood the whole day. and prolly the next few days too.
and if tts not bad enuff, my sandals snapped. now i gt no sandals.
how much worse can my day get?
Thursday, March 22, 2007
i dun feel like doing anything tonite. but i cant afford to. so rite now i am just taking my own sweet time.
there was a photo taking session for teachers just now. and i looked very boo. rushed to school. didnt have time to choose nicer clothes. haha. messy hair. yikes. lets just see how it turns out to be.
i love being in class.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
the past two nites have been so tite. its busy period rite now. with the setting of exam papers and all. so much to do in so little time. geez. i'm craving for a nice romantic dinner. like drop dead romantic kind. haha. i wish.
i love my kids.
my fon is fine! yay. finally i got it repaired. refused to get a new fon cos nothing attracted me except LG chocolate and sony ericsson w850i. the black one. i'm into black fons. nice kan. but the fons arent cheap. and i'm not desperate to change fon. on top of it all, i still love my pink fon. the first non-zero dollar fon i have. the first fon i bought. with my hard earned money. haha. so all the more i treasure it.
things i want:
- french manicure
- sinful cheesecakes
- something romantic tt will sweep me off my feet
- more time to set my papers!
- a beach getaway
- wallet
april is cmg and two of my buddies are gona be one year older. :P
Monday, March 12, 2007
ola!! i finally figured how to upload the pics! anyway, yeah its just some random shots aft my 'expensive' hair affair! urgh!
the march holidays is here. but it isnt 'march' of a holiday. haha. ironic. i have lessons from mon to thurs from nine to twelve. nope, i am not complaining. merely stating. i seriously dun mind coming back fr my bio kids. i need the time! thank god they are cooperative enough to come with smiles and laughters! after all, we are gona cut up flowers and stuffz.. so its pretty interesting actually. hehe.
last sat, me and my gals met up in the eve.. went to chill at the coffee bean by the singapore river.. such a nice ambience.. fa announced that she is getting engaged and married. engaged this april.. wedding next april..!! best kan!! and jaja's wedding is on the 8th dec.. wah.. everyone's getting married!! dun ask abt me k. anyway i am super happy for fa... eight years courstship.. its not easy ok. to everyone out there, let me tell you.. from my personal experience, a long term relationship is not easy to maintain. its got a lot of challenges... especially when your other half is of the same age. and u reach a stage where u are 'stuck'. you cant move on. you cant change anything. you're just in it. helpless but hopeful. so to the youngsters out there, dont commit yourself too early. seriously.
so me and my gals talked about relationships, love, commitments, expectations.. very deep and cheem concepts.. heh.. a lot of analysis.. and sharing.. i hope we didnt make fa think too much cos she has gladly said yes to her prince charming. we were all so touched by her story of how he proposed... haiz.. i wonder if my prince charming will propose in such a romantic manner. come to think of it, i think proposal is a HUGE thing. i mean, cmon guys.. u are asking the gurl to be your forever!! u better come up with stg decent! and of cos a wow-take-ur-breath-away-kinda-ring! for me, it must be a solitaire.. haha. must be very bling bling ok. *winks*
oh besides that, we discussed abt egypt. we are all super excited abt it! suzie has done a wonderful job in sharing with me a nine day itenary and all the tips fr an egypt holiday. so yeah.. now we gotto survey fr the best air tix deals!
i had my hair cut ytd. got cheated. hmpf. ended up paying 55 bucks instead of 35. so angry. spent three long hours at the salon!! super bored! not sure how i shd describe the outcome cos rite now its still straight cos the person blew it straight fr me.. so its very misleading.. must wait after wash... THEN my hair would be back to its original state and i'd know if its a success or a disaster!
the pay is in. yay. cant wait for the march bonus. woohoo. *not expecting much tho*
my fon is spoilt. cant sms. so i am getting a new fon. my heart aches to see my fave pink fon in a not so good condition.
btw, i've been thinking about some stuff.. so this is just fr sharing..
growing up is not easy. at every new stage in our lives, we'd be presented with new challenges. sometimes, it all happens too fast that we aren't ready to embrace the changes and rise up to others' expectations. in the pursuit of our personal goals, sometimes, we neglect other things that used to be of utmost importance. while some of us are desperately finding time and ways to keep up with our friends amidst our tight working schedule, some choose to be passive and wait for others to make the first move. friendships that were once so strong soon became a thing of the past. its sad when others dont appreciate our efforts in maintaining the bond. its sad when others just drift away.. it makes me wonder if i am the only one who feels sad about the drift. any friendship or relationship needs two to work. of cos sometimes, we need to compromise.. but once in a while, we got to be proactive and prove to the other party that we want the friendship going as much as they want to. if u choose to just sit and wait, then i'm afraid the ones who have been putting in effort might have assumed that you are just not interested. and once that happens, you can no longer say you are still the best of friends. and u cant blame others for it. cos u didnt do anything to stop it.
there's some things in life that are meant to last only for a while. if you have watched the show sweet november, u'd know what i mean. some things have no beginning.. thus no ending.. but you know that it is still something. something special perhaps. beautiful moments cant last forever. so cherish the moment and capture it. and it will live in your heart for as long as your heart is beating.
the silence that kills.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
finally i have figured out how to get into my blog! urgh. been wanting to blog but my laptop shows the blogger homepage in chinese. and i cant understand a nut.
guess where i am.
in my second home. yes. you guessed it rite. i am in SCHOOL. 4D 3N camp! hehe.. waiting fr my friends to finish their stuffz and we gona supper!
so much has happened over the past two to three weeks. confusion. frustation. hopes. desperation. misunderstandings. conflicts. confrontations. what a ride. but at the end of it all, i learnt a lot. and i learnt important things.
for all that its worth and all that we have talked about, i pray tt God will help us get through this. and may that plan be realised one fine day.