my two beloved teachers.

its rare that we have time to snap pics!

my saturdays are getting more and more boring. the only day when i'm free. i spend it at home most of the time. geez. but then again, i quite like it cos i am hardly home too.

yesterday was speech day. my boys did a great job for their performances. i'm proud of them. for their courage and talent. and i must say that my 'three steps to love' group really attracted the crowd. the guests were obviously smitten by them!! they had to sing to so many tables!! and some even came to them instead cos they are THAT hot! even the teachers were charmed by their performance. these guys really have what it takes. i really hope they would tap into their talent and stretch it further. for one thing, i'd definitely be their fan. u have my support guys.

i'm so glad speech day is over.

me and my colleagues went for a dinner at swensens after the whole affair. ate our hearts out and chilled and laffed and gossiped. most who went are the peepz gg bangkok.. and i think its gona be a fun trip. they are a bunch of happy and fun-loving ppl!! very onz and comprimising. cant wait. haha. but aft a while we all got so sleepy cos we were all so tired!! i ended up driving home alone cos the rest stays in sengkang, punggol, hougang and the nearby districts! only i am a bit far off. hmpf. but i managed to figure out my way without getting lost ok. from orchard u knw. is that an achievement or what! hehe.

i lead a busy lifestyle cos of the nature of my job. theres always something to do everytime. work never ends. its a matter of whether u wnat to close both eyes and put a stop to it urself. many times i wish it would be simpler and more relaxing.and i envy all the people who have all the time in the world. but, i just found out that ppl who have all the time in the world WANTS to be busy!! they are so restless that they have too much free time. they WANT to be occupied and involved in work. so it kinda tickles me at first. why would anyone want to be busy woth work?? but then i realise that it just shows one thing. we are never satisfied with what we have. the straight hair wants curls. the curled hair wants straight. the thin wants more. the not so thin wants less. the shorties complain. the tallies also complain.

i figured that a job that makes u too busy isnt very healthy. but a job tt gives u too much free time is also nt as desirable. the most important thing is balance. yet it is the most difficult thing to achieve. while some ppl prefers moderation, some believe in stretching themselves further and achieving more. and i believe that my nature is of the latter. so in a way it contradicts huh.. while i want a simple life, i like challenges too. and i believe in upgrading myself. and all these comes with a tight schedule. you win some, you gain some i guess..yeah. something for me to think about. maybe u'd wanna think abt it too.

i'd love to go shopping.

i wish we'd gone out today. but its allright. i understand.

i tried and i tried. to keep it going. i wanted to stay. the feeling was strong. but time and again i just seem to fail to keep it together.

desperation. frustation. paranoia. tears. love. appreciation. confusion. lost. hopes. its a bad mix of everything. my heart's a wreck and my mind's blocked.
where is this taking us to?
whats in it for us ?

i used to feel the sweetness. despite the bitterness.

but rite now, the world seems so dark. cos whats in between us is a lot of unspoken thots yet when spoken, misunderstood.

i'm tired.

if you wana leave me, least lets have a peacfeul goodbye.

broken.

friday nite is finally here. i met up with nad and xf to have dinner and hunt for a pair of heels. we only went to TM but its allrite cos i haven been there for a long time. but sadly, there wasnt any pair tt appealed to me. sigh. i dun have time to go look for it again. sigh.

i brought xuefen and nad to savanna condo park. to show them how beautiful the condo is. they were impressed and love it sooooo much. we wah-wah-wah a lot. jakunz kan. hehe. we were quite noti. haha. shant tell u what we did. but man..all three of us love the pool and the french windows and the yellow lights.. and the savanna ambience. soooo relaxing.. and sooooo romantic and cosy!! i wish i may.. i wish i might.. to have such a heavenly home!!

highly inspired. yet saddened by certain recent happenings.

when things bring u down, u tell urself that its all part and parcel of life. some days are good. some days are bad. sometimes u please ppl...sometimes, you step on someone's toes..sometimes u are right, sometimes u are wrong. what matters is not the incidents, but how you react to the incident. so, react wisely.

saturday is here again. just came back from school. wanted to come earlier to do some marking..but because of a late night yesterday, i could not open my eyes in the morning. its so nice to wake up later than usual.

this week had been another mad week. was really really occupied with cheerleading and vetting of papers..i wish theres 48 hours in a day. rite.

ytd was sports day. or should i say.. supposed to be sports day? the whole school was making its way down to toa payoh stadium when it started to rain cats and dogs. we had to assemble at the stadium nevertheless. we waited and waited for the rain to stop. it did..but much later. and by then, the track was wet and slippery and the soil was soaked. so, in the end, the whole sports day was postponed. we just had some international friendship day games, teachers' games and lucky draw. teachers' game was really simple.. we had to sweep the basketball across about 20 m? hehe. i swear i was sweeping the ball and running a little.. but apparently my kids said i was dancing? haha. how can that be rite! but thats not the point.. the point is, Aquila (my house) won the teachers' race. we started off LAST. but we came out FIRST. haha. yay for Aquila!

my cheerleaders were very sad and disappointed that the cheerleading competition was put off. they stayed till 11pm the night before just to practise but thanks to the rain, it was all in vain. well, no one knows that it would rain for sure. so, this is purely a case of no luck. i must say that i am really proud of my cheerleaders. despite the extremely short period of preparation time, they gave so much committment. more than half the team is heavily involved in SYF dance. thus, cheerleading practices could only effectively start at 5.30pm and must stop at 7pm cos the school has to close. so that is only about 1.5 hours! on tues, they had no songs, no cheers, no costumes and no steps. but by thurs night, everything was put together! three claps for their determination!! special thanks to jannath for allowing all of us to practise at her house till 11pm on thurs. i sent the kids back since it was late and i wouldnt want anything to happen to them! such wonderful students. go AQUILA!

i have a heap of marking to be done. geez.

when your world smiles with you..

in reny's car..spot the strawberry.

lunch cum dinner by the beach. i like.

sweetness

while waiting for the show

how do i make a decision
how can i just walk away
after all we've been thru
it aint easy
how can i just go without looking back
i cant seem to bring myself to do it

i need to ask myself
what is it that i really want
what is it that i really need

two circles that overlap
and i am caught in between

hopeless.
helpless.
out of luck.

been a long time again. finally, i have the time to blog. it seems tt my life is on a choo-choo-train. everything is happening so fast. too fast. i'm always doing something or at least thinking of something. its tiring of cos but i guess as the saying goes..."tough times dont last. tough man does." hehe. well, at least i pressed on these few hectic weeks!! tonite, for the first time after so long, i am nt feeling the pressure to complete some work. phew. its a PLEASURE. haha.

anyways,that aside,i'm embracing this weekend with love and hope. a few things planned..

tmr is a GURLS DAY OUT to Sentosa. Picnic in the afternoon and a romantic good time in the evening..i swear i cant wait and really luking forward to it. and most of the girls can make it! yayness. i cant live without them. haha. they are my boosters!

sat is a special day for a special fren. to YOU who is reading this, from the bottom of my heart, i wish you all the best in gracing through the next stage of your life. May you and him have many beautiful moments together as the both of you bring yourself a step closer to happily-ever-after. insyallah i'll be there to share the joyous occasion.

oh i would also like to take this opportunity to make a shout out to three people.. FARIDAH, kak AWIN and JASMINE. Happy birthday to each and everyone of you.. here's a special message to you girls..

Faridah..You know i love you to bits! Its great to have you in my life and to have spent two of the most amazing weeks with you!! Wishing you happy 26th!! you'll get your prezzie soon babe. promise! MWAH MWAH MWAH.

Kak AWIN..May you have many more beautiful elyshas!! please do cos one elysha is not enuff! she's simply too cute!

JASMINE..Gal..its been ages since we hang out kan. i MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY. nevertheless.. absence makes the heart grows fonder! out of sight but always on my mind!! i love you always! miss TJ times!!

some things in life are not meant to be understood. they are meant to be discovered.

i appreciate people appreciating me.