I just checked my exam results and alhamdulilah, i am graduating...

Firstly, I want to thank God for giving me the strength, health and endurance to get through my university education.

Secondly, I wana thank my family especially my dearest parents for their unconditional support and concern. Without their constant motivation, I wouldn't have made it this far. Thank you Mum and Dad. I love you both.

Thirdly, I wana thank my boyfriend for his understanding throughout. I know dear that u are always a victim when i was highly stressed with school. You have been there always. And i truly appreciate it. Thank you for putting up with my endless complaints, paranoia, hectic schedule and all the snappings.

Fourthly, I wana thank my greatest friends. In no order of merit (hehehe) thank you Reny, Xuefen, Syidah, Khairun, Baya, Nad, Shaq, Eunizar, Faridah and Jaja. You gals have really helped me along the way both in my schoolwork and my personal development. Life in NUS had been really meaningful with you gals around. I will miss the whole journey.Really. When everything else sucked in school, you gals are the only inspiration for me to go to school.

Thank you also to everyone else who have always believed in me. Alhamdulilah.. *smilez*

It was a kids day out. Brought my bros and cuzzins to the library to borrow books. I borrowed four books, one of which is called 'The Don't Sweat Guide for Teachers'.. hehe.. *one point for myself* I felt like a teacher bringing a small class for excursion!!! still must hold their hands while crossing the road!! haha.

Thanks Nad for being so sweet to check the closing time on the internet. MUAKZ. *one point for Nad*

After the library, me and the kids went to Bedok Reservoir to jog!! YAY!! I did it. Finally. Had no shoes.. but i was determined enuff to jog. So there was I .. in sandals on the rocky pavement!! grr. *two points for myself* ..felt so rejuvenated after that. Now all my muscles are aching!! haha... hope i can survive the ledang trip!

Did a wardrobe check in the day.. gave some of my smaller tight tops to my cuzzin. Guess what?? My 8-year-old cuzzin can fit into my clothes which i wore when i was 17!!!!!! Gosh!! Either i am microscopic or she's just big.

Results. Tomorrow. 5 pm.

Scared. Worried. Anxious. Paranoid. Scared.

All the best to myself.. and my darling gfs. *hugz*

LaLaLaLaLa.. i went shopping!! my long awaited spree!! heh. I wana give a shout out to my boyfriend who patiently went around with me! I feel so lucky that my boyfriend makes a superb shopping partner!!! He waited, carried all my shopping bags and commented on each piece i touched! Thank you sweetheart.. but must promise me that you will still be my faithful shopping partner even when we are married with kids ok!

Bought 4 tops, 1 'coat' and 3 earrings. Love all of them. Not sure if the 'coat' looks nice on me. Kinda insecure about it..! *boo*

Very tired.

Xuefen.. tks for the msg.. so touching.. i miss you too.. Feel so lonely on MSN cos u don't log on anymore!!! Love you!

Been a super boring day. Especially when Mr Boyfriend is down with flu. Thank god i managed to convince my dad to bring the family to Pasir Ris Park for a cycle. Pasir Ris is definitely less crowded than East Coast.

Treated my bros ice cream AGAIN. hahaha. Everyone is waiting for MY pay!

Thanks Nad for accompanying me for the hair trim yesterday.

Thanks Kima for accompanying me to Watsons for the 20% discounted hair serum yesterday! hahaha.

Me and Kima had a great 'makcik makcik' talk at the park. haha. It was on MARRIAGE and MONEY. the two Ms. Don't know what i will do without u gurl.. prolly have to go TM alone all the time. But you know what.. we've improved! From our 'big bookshop' and 'develop your pics' trips, we have moved on to Tampines Mall!! haha.. remember what i said yesterday .. "Gurls at our age go clubbing on saturday nights.. but where do we go?? WATSONS!!" haha.. even so, our mums still nag!

My lens tore. My glasses's screw came off. Tough luck.

Pipi.. when are we going shopping??

I miss my gurls. U gals miss me?? *hopes so!*

something to share..

" I wanted to be a football player but i've changed. Now i wanted to be a spy. I wanted to help people sneak in the bad guys place or house. Then mission accomplished. People will praised me. That is my new dream"
-HAZIQ (my 8-year-old bro) on the topic of "My aspiration"..

Heh.. what happened to ur tenses bro!! gosh.. mak will scold you for all those errors!! tsk tsk.

Anyway, i find it funny. cute kind of funny. heh. Maybe cos its coming from my own bro.. and i soooo can imagine him being a spy. cos thats what he does at home!! he plays spy almost all the time... but i seriously dunno who he is spying on!! hahaha. watever!

Ole Ole Ole.. Ole... Ole.. hahaha.. ok.. if u are wondering why i'm in such a chirpy mood.. thats because i had such a GREAT day today!! You must be thinking that its because i had a shopping spree rite..?? (afterall, shopping always make me one happy woman!).. but NOPE!! i didnt go shopping!

I'm so proud to announce here that being a cool, happening sister that i am, I actually sacrificed my shopping spree to support my bro for his soccer finals!!! and man...........i SO did not regret!! cos the underdogs WON!!! YES!!! Meridien DEFEATED VJC (the defending champs and well known for its soccer) !!! WOW!!!

I can't describe how stressed and excited i was thruout the entire game..for those of u who are soccer lovers, u mite like this entry..but for those who don't give a hoot, TOO BAD!

Gosh.. VJC is good. very strong team who knows their stuff. Damn.. they were attacking so much that my heart was beating so fast all the time! But cheers to Meridien who really sweated it all out to keep their defence tight. Good job to MJC goalkeeper too.

Meridien used the defence strategy..they had only one striker who can run REALLY fast. hehe.. It was like a suspense thriller. I was sitting at the edge of the seat throughout. Meridien scored first during the last 15 minutes. They didnt attack much.. but when they did.. GOAL! *hooray*.. i thot they had a chance to win.. but of course, they wanted to add spice.. so the captain successfully tackled one of the VJ guys in the penalty box! so yeah. 1-1 in the last five minutes. 90 mins.. score was still 1-1.

Injury time of 5 mins. None scored.

5 penalties. VJ screwed up first...they missed second penalty. MJ was leading AGAIN. but of course.. AGAIN, they wanted to prolong the game.. MJ captain missed the 5th penalty kick.

WHAT THE HELL!! so yeah.. more penalties. by then i couldnt take it already!!! so tense man!!

6th penalty: Both scored.

7th penalty: VJ missed. referee blew whistle. MJ won!! but wait. they celebrated only for a minute or so before the referee confessed that he had made a mistake!!! turns out that MJ had not taken their 7th penalty!!!! so, they haven won YET. ULTIMATE false alarm man! So, MJ took their 7th shot and GOAL! referee blew whistle. for REAL!!! Now CONFIRMED... Meridien JC champed!!! and they celebrated AGAIN!! hahaha. funny but not so funny. can u imagine the pressure?? to think that they had celebrated their 'victory' a minute before knowing they will win! imagine if they actually missed that 7th shot and another penalty taken and VJ won instead! that will be a real stab in the heart!!! so drama mama.

And with that, i felt soooo relieved. PHEW. congrats bro.. u played well.. tho sumtimes u teased the ball a bit too much!! action only lah u.. wanna show off skills konon..! And just so u know.. because of my support for you, i actually missed 20 minutes of my movie and even had to take a cab from the national stadium to bugis to rush for my movie!! lucky you win!!! if not.....!! HMPF!! *am i a good sister or what!*

Monster in law aint that good. its ok to miss it. to think i caught the sneak preview. ticket was 8 bucks!! so much so for wanting to watch it on a wed so tt it will only be 6.50!! i felt so cheated!! hahahaha.

thanks sweetheart for spending time with me.. it was such a fantastic day.. we had fun didnt we! with all the screaming and the cursing at the stadium..! and dear, please cut your hair!!! and get well soon ok... *smilez* thanks for supporting my bro too...!! *muakz*

I have a new fon!!! yay!! siemens. yah i know its not very user frenly.. but its a camera fon! and the pic is not too bad..! plus its FREE!!!! *so dun u dare spoil my mood ok* hehehe..

Tomorrow will be the big day for my bro. Not that he is getting married..but his college had managed to get to the finals for soccer!! yay! so its Meridien JC vs Victoria JC! considering Meridien is a new JC and was 4th last year, the school is really proud to have made it to the finals... they gonna send 25 buses of students!! apparently the whole college gets half day off to go support the soccer boys! Too bad my mum told me last minute.. already made plans with sweedie.. But adik.. u have my support k! Play well bro.. and show everyone what u are worth! hahaha.. live up to that 'reputation' please! who knows some chicks mite get attracted to u... haha. YAH RITE!!!!

Finally, after 8 consecutive days of work, i woke up to a "i dun have to work today" kinda feeling!!! It feels so great! Its been really tiring.. First i was sitting all the way in the office.. then i was standing thruout the day and nite at the exhibition.

One thing i discovered while working at the exhibition was that.. so many of my frens are getting married!!!! i'm sooo jealous!!! hahaha.. the simple thot of being in a wedding gown and all is really wow.. but yeah i know.. its way more than that. its scary actually. marriage. big word with a bigger meaning.

Made a couple of frens at the exhibition.. If anyone is getting married.. check out Decorama Wedding Services and Zul Radi Bridal ok..! Met an old fren. Oh so u do recognize me huh? And all those times you gave me attitude. Whats your problem?? I will be nice if u are nice. But if u arent, then i think u've pressed the BITCH button.

How would you feel if a pair of twins hits on you? In a 'One after another' kinda way.. To me its disgusting.

Love triangle: A likes B. C likes B. B likes C.
Love chain: A likes B. B likes C. C likes D.

Which is worse? triangle or chain? *deep in thots*
Reality hurts sometimes. But there will always be wishful thinking.

One of the reasons why booble is my little bubble of thots is because I'm a dreamer. I live in that little bubble wishing for so many things. My bubble is getting bigger by the day.. but it wont be a bubble forever. I wana make it happen. I wana pierce it yet not lose everything that i have in it. I wana make it real. As adam khoo says "I will. I must."

On a different note altogether, Xuefen and me were so silly to think that results would be out today. Thank god baya was there to 'correct' me. hahaha. thanks babe. i kanchong for nothing. even dreamt about it man yesterday.. sheesh.

GALS...when are we gona go out again? i miss you all already..!!!
CUZZIES.... when oh when is our gurls day out!
BOYFRIEND..I can't wait for the movie and shopping tomorrow.. yay!!! movie on me.. shopping on you! hehehe.

oh booble.. i miss you sooooooo much.. i so need to pour out a lot of things..

started my day with breakfast at Macs with my bf..walked around TM and then to work.. yes.. work again!! this time its my exhibition job. the tiring but quite fun one. heh. its gona be a 7 day week for me!! someone pleasssseeee massage me!

crowd was bad. but i did my job. smile..coax. settled. heh. sounds easy? u try!! sigh.. as usual, each time i work in wedding exhibitions, i feel like getting married! but of cos.. thats like a long long wait.. and i wonder if i can actually fit any bridal clothes. all the gowns and kebayas look so good on those tall lanky models..and i'm anything but that!

you wear what you are. you are what you wear.

there was this model who looked quite good i must say.. and this is my impressionS of him:
In baju pengantin..fair, arab looking, someone of class.
In non-baju pengantin..fair, arab looking, MAT.
Sheesh!!! it was like two totally different personalities potrayed!! gosh... sleeveless shirt with not very toned arms!! sorry man.. dont mean to gossip.. but i just cant help it!!!

Some guys crap when they hit on a gurl. some guys just do it silently. puts up a cool front that says "i dont give a damn about you." so, whats your preference? Mine's the first. cos at least by crapping, the gurl can respond and there's a form of two way interaction...though lame, it mite still lead to something better. or worse actually for that matter. but hey, gotta risk it.

And guys.. whats ur pick? Thin or fleshy?

Gosh.. i have always wanted to put on weight. but somehow, i think i mite have put on a little bit too much..actually, i was happy about the extra kilos that i have gained..cos u see, to me, WOMAN is all about curves.. i dun see the big deal about cat walk models.. but i am so damn jealous of those hindustan actresses whos got the pretty face and hot bod!! Hence my constant motivation to become fleshy. hahaha. but its not fun anymore when someone says " i've never seen you this round.. and i didnt think u can actually have fats..but now u have! " and mind you.. she even pinched the 'fat' areas! gosh.. i have mixed feelings about this one man.. and then she goes on to say "but its nice.. sexy!!" yah rite man.. gosh.. its like i was slapped in the face and then hugged and kissed. bad combi. totally.

so i shoud exercise he says. yah i think i should. mum says i shouldnt eat late at nite. dad says nothing. bros said fat. cousin said chubby. another cousin said fat. shish. so what say you? I say watever.

Gosh i duno what to wear for tomorrow.. the ladies are going white .. i dun have anything white that is nice. In fact, i dun have anything nice already!!!! *heeeeeelllllllppppp*

I want a guy who can take care of me. in every possible sense.

nitez...

Ironically, i am feeling kinda sad that its my last day as a receptionist.. less than an hour and i will be knocking off.. and my job is done.

Lorraine: Did u have a good time working here?
Me: Yeah.. The people here are really nice..
Lorraine: I know.. people like me rite..
Me: Yah of course.. Everyone here is very warm... i like..
Lorraine: Yeah..seriously, this is a nice place to work at.. *smilez*

And i do agree. Its like one big happy family.. its just that recept is not exactly my thang.. heh. but i will remember these peepz here.. esp kak nor and amin.. kak nor cos she's the one i work for and amin cos he's really an interesting person.. plus the fact that he is kak nor's good friend.. so we kinda hang out during lunch.. All the best for you both.. and thanks for the funny, interesting stories and gossip..! And kak nor.. thanks so much for the lunch!! hope the new gal won't be a 'threat' to u!!! hahaha.. i still am amused that u used that term on me! hahaha.. apa jer.. take care all!! *smilez*

*Burp...* Great lunch at work! especially when it's free. hahaha. u shd see how much food the guys took! It was like a hill of rice and gravy on that tiny paper plate! sheesh. My boss is back.. and i had just served his two guests a glass of water!! haha... i'm like a waitress!! walked down the office corridor with a tray of drinks! *one point for me* but it didnt stop there.. once they left , i had to clear the glasses and wash!! haha. interesting job.

Can't wait for all of them to go for their monthly meeting later. Yes. ALL. which means i will be alone!! no need to transfer calls. no need to do anything!! Is that great or is that great!!! muahahaha.. *evil laughter*

Check this out..

Lorraine: Nor.. why u look at me like that? i pretty issit?
Nor: I like your shoes lah..
Lorraine: Oh but i pretty also rite today?
Nor: Hmmm.. whatever it is, i prettier lah..
Lorraine: Isit? Sure or not? Ok Fazleen, u judge.. who prettier? me or Nor?
Fazleen (me) : Erm.. i'm not involved.. but I'm the prettiest!! hahahaha.
Nor: wahlao...!!! ( reached out her hands to strangle Fazleen...)
Lorraine: hmm.. but that is the truth lah..

haha. moral of the story....its not about being pretty.. its about being prettier! or prettiest if there's more than two!! kwakwakwa..

Reached work super duper early today.. 7.40 am. i was planning to sleep in the office till morning.. but of cos.. the office was locked! sheesh. thats what u get for coming early..! so i had to go down to the main pantry where many other staff were having breakfast. and i have none. grr. Eventually my office was unlocked at 8.30 and i didnt even get a second of sleep..! how great. hmpf.

I wonder who'll make it to the finals for American Idol. Not that i am a fan of this season..but i managed to catch last nite's episode.. and man.. seriously all three were good!! but that Bo Bice guy.. he is totally at another level! he just sets the stage on fire man.. i personally like the blonde gal.. very strong voice that gave me goosebumps!! hehe.. ok now i am reminded of taufik. I miss Singapore Idol..!!! Oh that vonzell gal.. think she has a good figure. *jeles.. hehe*

Ok booblez... later. Got to 'work'.

For the first time just now, i was occupied at work. For once, there was a LOT of work. and i was finally a busy receptionist. hehe. Nothing interesting other than that.

so glad u are back.. miss u so much. *hugs*

Had a good time slacking in front of the tv just now... gosh.. i just realised Orlando Bloom is hot..!! hehe. damn charming face.. and his dimples.. so sweet. *sooo jealous*

Oh i survived the day without my Organics shampoo!! Wasnt as bad as i expected.*phew*

Thanks Xuefen for spending some time reading my blog when u were at work just now.. Is my mug sitting nicely on ur desk now??!! Better be ok..!! Thot that a mug would be good for u...and its meant for ur office desk .. so that u can feel my presence.. and feel enlightened..hehe...*yah rite fazleen..*

i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
u're still with me in my dreams
and tonite its only you and me..

Some songs just really bring u back to the bittersweet moments with that special someone... was just thinking.. "if u really love her, let her go..." how true is this? who came up with this whole idea of letting go of ur true love ...? Why give in? Why not fight for it?Cos love can't be forced? Can u really love someone who doesnt love you back?...........

Everyone has preferences over everything. Sometimes it may leave others slightly hurt. But really, its nobody's fault. Just as long as that the preference is not insensitively shown.

Nitez booble.

ok booble.. get ready.. i have quite a lot to say tonite..cos its been a pretty interesting day for me!

To continue from where i left.. i think i am really gona dread to go to work from tmr till fri.. Before i left the office just now, my colleague gave me a HUGE pile of cheques to be sent out!! gosh.. that will definitely keep me bz for the next three days!!! damn! And one of the guys tried to be farny! he called me at my desk from the first floor.. pretending to be some businessman who wanted to join venture with my company! what the hell.. scared me for a while.. grr. still got the cheek to call a couple of times after that!!! haha.. and kak nor put him on speaker fon without his knowledge of cos!! so we had a good time laffing at him.. haha.. see lah.. mengurat lagi.. haha.. thats the word kak nor used lah. haha.

i went for a yummy dinner with the gals.. gosh.. it was sooo great to meet them after so long!! hope u peepz love the prezzies!! Thanks for such a wonderful time.. really destressed me!! *not that i was highly stress tho..* Had a fun time sharing stories and teasing everyone.. especially khai.. heh.. sleepy eh khai.. sampai garuk mata eh ngantok.. rupa rupa nyer.. hmpf!! ada kereta di sebalik traffic!!! hahaha...or should i say.. ada sunshine di sebalik clouds!! hehehe. *khai was so cute just now..u should have seen the way she rubs her eyes*

Duwei... i still not happy that u left me out in the pic!! grr.. how could u man! thats it. u arent part of the alumni! hmpf!!! and this isnt the first time it happened!!! People always leave me out in pics!! for god's sake.. am i THAT small???!! sheesh. next time i shall always be in the centre!! *anyway duwei.. i am just kidding.. i not angry.. just feel like wana strangle u only.. hehehe*

me and the gals decided on a RULE.. as xuefen puts it. and the rule states that we should meet up fortnightly.. and have a monthly movie treat.. and once in a while we shall treat ourselves to stuffz like spa.. or canoeing.. or picnic.. u get the idea.. best kan..?!! rite...of cos!! haha.. and i wana declare that i am not the leader ok!! haha.. cos i no longer say "lets go macs".. or "can we go BK?"..haha.

went back home after dinner. think i was being followed. *scared. panic* but thank god i reached home safely..

oh booble.. guess what now.. dad says "check out south korea".. i was like HELLO!!!! u said we are going to melbourne!! made me surfed the whole nite and dream about the 12 apostles.. and now u telling me SOUTH KOREA!! sheesh. i give up. this is worse than my receptionist job. and i am not even paid!

when oh when are u gona call..

I am worrying about the fact that i dont have shampoo to go to work tomorrow.. how!!!! Confirm bad hair day.. *like every other day.. hehehe*

*thanks* .. :)

i am beginning to not like this job. do u believe in bad vibes? i am sensing it from some people.. think i'm just not the type to sit at the desk 8 hours and do paper work.. i need to meet ppl!! i enjoyed myself soooooo much when i was doing telemarketing, sales promoter at exhibitions and relief teaching.. but receptionist..blah. can't wait for friday.

but i can't wait for later even more.. meeting my darling gfs.. fa, so sad u can't join.. but hey..u're sooo having fun at ur destination XXX. hmpf. soooo secretive lah.

Oooooh talk about destination.. GUESS WHAT!!! my dad decided to not go beijing and go melbourne instead..!! and of cos... he made me surfed the net about the place..and i must say that theres a couple of places there that seems really attractive! its gona be early winter there and i heard its pretty cold.. oh man.. i hope its not as cold as New Zealand..i was trembling almost all the time when i was there! but then again.. it was winter. haha..

Mount buller.. azmin's been there.. and from his pics, it looks fun! with all the snow.. i like!! haha.. can ski also.. but i shant put my hopes up too high. NZ was supposed to snow when i went...but it didnt!! felt super cheated!! hmpf.

Phillip Island..can see penguins.. apparently the free, wild ones!

The 12 apostles.. oh gosh.. from what i saw on net.. it looks really really beautiful.. and i am begging my dad to drive there. *pleasseee... pretty please with sugar on top*

See.. not bad rite my 'research..' haha.. thanks Azmin for entertaining my enquiries!! Hope you get well soon k..

Pipi, i miss you... thanks for calling me yesterday..

Hmm. what the hell is a drawer pocket??!! by the time i am done being a receptionist, i think i can graduate with a degree in stationerology!! ok ok corny.. but really.. theres a lot of interesting stuffz.. and argh. someone just asked me about the conference room!! aiyoh.. how i know!!!! grrrrr.

Hungry mungry.

i think i suck at being a receptionist. heh. easy job yet i dun think i am good at it. i feel like the bookshop auntie and the postman. People will come to me and say " can i have a blue pen please.. red marker.. paper files.." sheesh. and the thing is.. i usually have trouble looking for whatever they asked for!! argh... i will know where the markers are.. but specifically RED ones..HMM. the same goes for paper dividers.. i have the coloured ones, non coloured ones.. but nooooooooooo...they have to ask for the PLASTIC ones. and as per normal.. i dont know where that is. so i search and search and search... while the fellow waits and waits and waits!! so stress!! heh. eventually i will just call Kak Nor to ask where she put! sux rite.. like as tho i am sooo lousy ok!! can't even look for things! but man... they have like 1001 stationery down here..!!! *helppppp* And of cos not forgetting, the letters i have to bring home everyday to post!!! sheesh. get a REAL postman please!

Ok maybe i am complaining too much.. haha.. wake up fazleen!! Working is all about learning!! so yeah.

Counting sheeps. A book i'm currently reading. Looks interesting. Hmm.

Do u know who goes for a 3-day camp without bringing undergarments, toothbrush and only one top?!! Good luck dear.

Zzzzz.. Its monday morning again. and i have been yawning ever since i woke up. the morning rain really tempted me to just sleep and not go to work.. but yah rite. grr.. buzy morning cos of all the saturday letters.. oh but good news is that my boss is out of town again!! YAY!! u know he actually called me SMALL GURL. sheesh. *smacks* I still haven told Kak Nor that i am supposed to work till Friday only. *grinz*

Happy Birthday to Nad and Xuefen!! So lucky eh the two of you.. good friends born on the same day..!! I wonder if u peepz were actually side by side in the baby room 22 years ago!! To both bday gurls.. I hope you gals will have a great day today..and get some prezzies..heh, mine will come later k.. not today at least..*save the best for last..winks* May happiness come your way and may our frenship lasts till old age!!

Talk about that.. a few days back, I saw a group of three NANNIES in the train.. and these arent your typical aunties or ah sohs.. but really cool, hip, 'mature' women!! They were sitting rite beside me...and of cos, being 'curious', I eavesdropped their conversation. Judging from what i heard, i guessed that the three of them are LONG time frens.. really good buddies.. and i think they had a nanny nite out.. happening rite!!!

so i started to wonder if that will happen between me and my gfs.. i wonder how we'll go on from here.. things will definitely change.. but how different? People come and go.. only few will stay..and i wonder who...

Now that school is over, its gona be hard to meet up.. but its not impossible. just that everyone will have their own lives..schedules will clash.. priorities are different..and those days that we studied and played together will be long gone.. but one thing i am sure of is that those days will always live in my mind.. and one day i shall tell my kids about all the sweet memories of me and my angels.. my true friends who made growing up a lot more fun and meaningful.

I love you my dear friends.. and u know who u are.. :)

Got my pay ytd and man.. it feels good.. three digits restored. haha. pathetic huh. but better than two digits. And i am sooo craving for a shopping spree..been forever since i last shopped. i am so amazed that i survived the entire previous semester without shopping. not even earrings ok. i was so miserable. but yeah.. no money means no money. no buts. haha.

hmm..list of things to buy:
1) many earrings
2) bottomS (no jeans, hipsters, short skirts.. gosh.. what does that leave me with??!!! yikes..)
3) DECENT but NICE topS (no funny bunny prints..)
4 ) a reasonably big bag
5) coloured lens
6) 5 presents ( i shant say whose.. hahaha)
7) a condo (this has been on my list since five years ago .. so yeah. not an immediate need. but a must-have by 35)

*smile*

Ok..as promised! These are my cuzzins!!! ok the baby isnt exactly my cuzzin.. she's Elysha who is actually my cuzzins daughter.. but she's so irresistably cute that i have to share that pic with everyone!! Ok anyway, top pic is Marlin, me and Suzy.. the october, november and december babies.. our mums and dads always ask who will marry first!!! hahaha.. i have a feeling its not gona be me. bottom pic is shasha me and suzy, another trio combi that i so love..vain pots! especially shasha!! hahaha.. been a long time since we meet up cuzzies!! i miss u all tau!! hmpf!

Ok booble.. you know what.. i thot that my blog is sooo incomplete if theres no pics.. so i decided to learn how to upload them. and thanks to mas, my taufik-buddy, i did it!! yay!! so now i can intro u to my loved ones.. and to start off, this is a pic of me and sweedie taken during one of those lunch-cum-dinner 'dates' that we squeezed in our hectic schedule during exam period.. thank god exams are over.. and no more squeezed dates! i love my pipi.. many times i think he knows me better than i know myself! Below are some other pics of me and my closest frens.. I have yet to put up pics of me and my beautiful cuzzins.. cos i am runing late for tuition! But i will when i come back!Ok i better run before my kid gets pissed.. later booble.. byez!

Me and the TJ gals at Rozza's wedding.. Actually theres more babes in the click.. but i dun have a pic that has everyone in it!! anyways from left to rite is Farah, Me, Reny, Fath and Jas.. and two extras.heh.

This is me and my darling angels..gosh i dun know what i would do without them.. Reny was the one who took the pic.. Xuefen couldnt join us cos she was at China doing a good deed like building roads for the needy ones there.. :)

Thats me and Xuefen, my cute chinese gf... Me and Reny, one of my jambuest gf.. Me and Lat, my baby-doll face gf..

oooh booble.. i miss you!!

wat a tiring day.. had tuition in the morning...went to meridien JC open house and then window shopping with my mum and two little bros..

Meridien JC.. wow. theres a HUGE diff btw a new and old school.. my bro so doesnt know how lucky he is to be in a new school with all the tip top facilities.. unlike Temasek JC.. soooo old and just so lame lah the labs. yucks. everything about that college is ugly especially the uniform.. wonder how my sweedie could actually got attracted to me during those days.. haha.. i quote from him " you were like this small, skinny gurl who always have a pony tail.. and have a big head" haha.. and guess wat i said.. "yes.. and that was the gurl u fell in love with.." hehehehe. then he said its my smile that blinded him!! *i should not stop smiling then ...*

how time files.. its been almost five years since i left college.. but it feels like it was only yesterday.. i didnt expect my noble intention of accompanying my mum to the open house at meridien JC to leave me feeling all nostalgic.. when the principle gave a talk on A'level education and JC life.. gosh.. i was thinking.. BEEN THERE DONE THAT.. she mentioned "A levels is very very rigorous".. yah rite. thats an understatement. its more like A levels is a freaking nitemare that takes away two years of ur life!! i am only speaking from experience.. and i was so proud of myself that i survived. TJ.. where all the out-of-the-world-kinda-hardworking peepz are..its damn ridiculous lah. EVERYONE studies EVERYTIME. haha. u just got to be in there to know what i mean.. but hey.. that school has got the bestest teachers..and thats where i met my 'happening' frens..

I miss the TJ peepz sooooo much.. reny, farah, jasmine, abidah, myra, fath, lat, amirul, azmin, hafiz... these are my closer college buddies.. without them i would have given up and prolly go poly.. u shd meet them.. they are a bunch of kool happening ppl who are actually quite kental!! hahaha.. but i love them so much.. *MUAKZ to the gals only..*

And the talk also made me realize how 'old' i am.. how much i have 'grown'.. (horizontally).. i was a student.. and soon to be a teacher.. wow.. what goes around comes around rite? sooooo, since i was a good student, i hope i will get good students too!!

I learnt sum stuff.. like how teachers should talk to parents during meet the parent session.. always start with the GOOD points... please the parents..then slowly bring up the less good points.. and say it in a very nice constructive way.. ok noted.

Oh.. met an old neighbour just now.. and this was the dialogue between mum and neighbour..

N: eh ur daughter big ah now.. last time so thin..now grow bigger already..
M: oh.. u mean my daughter grow taller already issit?
N: no.. not taller.. but bigger..

and i can just smile. wonder what she meant. bigger. hmm. watever. haha. think i fat lah now. maybe not fat fat. but at least fatter. but i like. haha. hate being skinny. grr.

pay day tmr. come money come. i need to buy FIVE presents. gosh. *headache*

ok booble.. i better go call him now.. miss my pipi..

Meridien means the highest point a star can reach..

good morning everyone...!! its 8.35 according to the office clock... issit early or wat! i'm amazed i am up and typing at this hour when usually i will still be enjoying my beauty sleep! working here deprives me of food and sleep!

its a beautiful morning. i feel so much better. so yeah i guess the rainbow did come. and the cave is empty again!! yay! *thank god* and i am not angry at my parents anymore.. :)

dad suggested to go beijing.. well, not exactly THE place that i wana go.. but i dun mind discovering the country.. i guess its very different from all the european or 'english' countries that i have been to.. my bestie khairun had been to beijing before.. and she said it was so fun! so, maybe it is! and i do wana see the great wall of china... apparently it is THAT wow.

oh no. the general manager is back from his trip to i-duno-where. gosh.. he looks so damn fierce and he sits rite in front of me, in his room with clear glass wall of course. yikes..so now he can monitor me and i cant do silly stuff. must always pretend that i am doing work.. haha.

ok..think i better do real work like checking if theres new faxes.. make tea for myself!

oh and i suddenly have this idea of naming my blog 'booble'.. so yah.. see ya booble. heh.

"booble" is my little bubble of thoughts. cute. cool.

seee.. i told ya there'll be a fourth time!

sob sob.. OC made me teared.. more like marissa actually. daughter of a thief and slut. bad combi. i hope no one ever has to be in that situation. i have always pitied her. the ones she love always walked out on her. it wasnt her fault that she 'hook up' with the yard guy. for god's sake... ryan had a baby with another gal.. and was gonna father the child. obviously marissa has to move on! stupid ryan. grr. but they are never meant to be. since day one! a fren at work said that a soulmate is someone whom u know is meant for you but u can never be together with. like lana and clarke. ryan and marissa. deep down they love each other. sumhow things just dun go their way. but their hearts dont stop connecting.

so wats the diff btw soulmates, first love, true love, crush, infatuation..? how wld u know its love? and how wld u know its real love?

haiz. effects of the OC on me. i start to think abt these kinda stuffz and end up wide awake thruout the nite. but but but.. yay! tmr is FRIDAY!!!! woohoo.. weekends!!!

hmm.. "bimbo stories tend to spread" . Thanks there Mr Aussy.. geez.. werds spread damn fast! so now everyone knows about my stamp fiasco! hahaha.. but i was silly. eee.. so embarassing.. ok for those of u who dont know what the hell i am blabbering about.. i just have stg to share with u. "anything that needs to get posted FROM singapore needs a singapore stamp. regardless the destination". Get that? simple. haha. big boo for myself.

wokies...ten minutes to midnite.. expecting a call.. hope the rainbow will show up soon..

" u know i can't smile without you.. cant live without you.."

Third blog for the day.

Either i am way bored or just a little bit excited about this bloggy moggy thinghy mhingy. geez.

i had lunch. phew. or else i wld have fainted. but i had no appetite. and thats RARE. fazleen and no appetite just dont go together. i guess matters of the heart affects the stomach huh..

i miss him.

i dun even know why this is happening. one moment its fine. the other its not. its just like those unexpected rain which comes when the sun is shining bright. The good thing about such rains is that there will usually be a rainbow.. and i am luking for the slightest sign of any.

Money makes the world go round?
Money is everything? ok maybe not everything. but its a whole lot of damn things!
And mine is SERIOUSLY depleting. Waiting for THE 8th lesson and this receptionist job to end.. slowly but surely.

I wana go for a holiday. its great news dad gets the june holiday leave. but where to???!!
There's countless places i wana go...

vernice. canada. greece. cainnes. egypt. los angeles. italy. ooh.. can i just say the whole world!
lalalalala... i am dreaming again.

One and a half more hours to go. but i bet i will put up another post tonite. especially when the cave is still occupied.

was it something i said
was it something i did
or is it none of everything
and yet its not nothing

i'm still waiting...

The first bubble

Gosh.. i never thought i would actually create my own blog. Boredom brings surprises indeed. and boredom is an understatement rite now. geez. i'm a hot receptionist. yah rite. sitting alone in the office with nothing to do. waiting for phonecalls. and waiting for THE phonecall. or maybe at least an sms. theres really nothing to look forward to today. i'm cashless and from the looks of it, i will probably be lunchless. of all days that they can order food, they have to do it today. which means theres an almost zero chance of me getting money frm the evil ATM. grr.

Ok on a happier note.. i guess i finally found a little space where i can free my thots.. hopefully this works..

Bad start to my morning. sometimes i just wana be free from everyone. but no man lives alone. parents give a thousand and one reasons. so i have to go home straight after work. first it was " u werked the whole day.. arent u tired..u need to rest".. next it was "ur bro needs u to teach him maths at nite.." then finally the REAL reason came out.."u go out with ur bf too often". ok thats enough dad. i so wana say that "yes i am tired but yes i want to watch a movie to relax.. and i do teach my bro even after i come back.. and NO i dun go out too often". argh. I am 22 and i cant even chill after work??!! For God's sake, you guys were married at 22!!! and it doesnt help AT ALL that i cried myself to sleep last nite.

Which brings me to another tissue. guys complain abt girls' pms. but it is not our fault. Mother nature has it all planned in that way. u think we like it??!! so we have pms. but wat about u martians? ok fine.. no pms. but u guys have those cave things. the whole theory on martians go to their caves to sort out themselves. and yes.. no entrance for the venusians. u cant even peep. u SHOULDN'T is more like it.

argh. still no phonecall. are u sleeping or still in the cave? i'm helpless.

I miss my friends. I miss school. somehow. but no.. i wldnt wana be stuck in school forever. and i pray to god that he lets me graduate this semester. next stop: NIE. hopefully. *scared*