oh booble.. i miss you sooooooo much.. i so need to pour out a lot of things..

started my day with breakfast at Macs with my bf..walked around TM and then to work.. yes.. work again!! this time its my exhibition job. the tiring but quite fun one. heh. its gona be a 7 day week for me!! someone pleasssseeee massage me!

crowd was bad. but i did my job. smile..coax. settled. heh. sounds easy? u try!! sigh.. as usual, each time i work in wedding exhibitions, i feel like getting married! but of cos.. thats like a long long wait.. and i wonder if i can actually fit any bridal clothes. all the gowns and kebayas look so good on those tall lanky models..and i'm anything but that!

you wear what you are. you are what you wear.

there was this model who looked quite good i must say.. and this is my impressionS of him:
In baju pengantin..fair, arab looking, someone of class.
In non-baju pengantin..fair, arab looking, MAT.
Sheesh!!! it was like two totally different personalities potrayed!! gosh... sleeveless shirt with not very toned arms!! sorry man.. dont mean to gossip.. but i just cant help it!!!

Some guys crap when they hit on a gurl. some guys just do it silently. puts up a cool front that says "i dont give a damn about you." so, whats your preference? Mine's the first. cos at least by crapping, the gurl can respond and there's a form of two way interaction...though lame, it mite still lead to something better. or worse actually for that matter. but hey, gotta risk it.

And guys.. whats ur pick? Thin or fleshy?

Gosh.. i have always wanted to put on weight. but somehow, i think i mite have put on a little bit too much..actually, i was happy about the extra kilos that i have gained..cos u see, to me, WOMAN is all about curves.. i dun see the big deal about cat walk models.. but i am so damn jealous of those hindustan actresses whos got the pretty face and hot bod!! Hence my constant motivation to become fleshy. hahaha. but its not fun anymore when someone says " i've never seen you this round.. and i didnt think u can actually have fats..but now u have! " and mind you.. she even pinched the 'fat' areas! gosh.. i have mixed feelings about this one man.. and then she goes on to say "but its nice.. sexy!!" yah rite man.. gosh.. its like i was slapped in the face and then hugged and kissed. bad combi. totally.

so i shoud exercise he says. yah i think i should. mum says i shouldnt eat late at nite. dad says nothing. bros said fat. cousin said chubby. another cousin said fat. shish. so what say you? I say watever.

Gosh i duno what to wear for tomorrow.. the ladies are going white .. i dun have anything white that is nice. In fact, i dun have anything nice already!!!! *heeeeeelllllllppppp*

I want a guy who can take care of me. in every possible sense.

nitez...