Ok peepz.. these are the pics taken on Fazleen-Syidah-Mas-Khairun date...

Its true that teaching makes you feel young.. hehe.. when u look at the kids and the things they do.. you cant help but flashbacked to your secondary school days.. all the energy and excitement of growing up. The phase that we were neither here nor there.

EVSS had their talentime just now.. and i really enjoyed it!!!! the students were soooo enthusiastic about it!! The funny thing is.. 90 percent of them were really out of tune or had ultra bad pitching or was not singing together with the music!!! But all those became secondary and what mattered was their courage to actually perform despite the 'technical faults'.. some were seriously carried away by themselves and thought they were some superstar giving their own concert.. the teachers had a good time with their many 'surprises'..hehehe.. sooo cute lah!

Aaron Aziz was there as a judge.. and the gurls were crowding around him after the whole thing.. but yeah.. he is cute. and he's frenly.

I am so in love. So in love with love. So in love with my pipi. Thanks for the very sweet note.. insyallah we'll make it through together...cos in my heart, there's only you. And in my dreams, its only you. And in my future, i want it to be you...


He loves her. She loves him. No matter what others may say, we'll walk down the aisle one day.

Insyaallah.

Finally.. after two boring days at school.. i was given proper welcome note and stuffz.. and then came the news..

"Fazleen.. you have to teach next week because Kelvin will be away for the entire week.. he has to do reservist.."

*GULP* waaaaaattttt!!! teach for the entire week???!!! and today is like wednesday!!! wow. thats fast huh. and so i talked to kelvin.. and guess what... from now till friday.. i can only observe ONE sec 4 lesson and ONE sec 3 lesson!! THATS IT!! and i have to teach already!!! oh gosh..

so just now.. i sat in for the sec 4 class.. it was on Sexual Reproduction in Human.
yeah.. its THE topic. The class was pretty well behaved.. quite attentive *kelvin said its becos of the nature of the topic* and very responsive... so thats good news for me! *i hope*
Anyways.. i wana share some moments i had in the class..

Moment 1
Student: Cher.. why some condoms got flavour?
Teacher: Erm... its for pleasure for the women. For guys not really...
Student: *giggles*

Moment 2
Student 1: Cher.. whats so special about vibrating condoms?
Teacher: Erm.. thats way out of your syllabus. You dont have to know.
Student 2: Oh yah man.. got vibrating condom one.. damn ex siah.. !!
Teacher: anyways... * diverted from topic*

Moment 3
Teacher: So where is the semen deposited?
Student 1: cervix??
Teacher: NO!! Anyone else want to answer??
Student 2: How come not cervix??
Teacher: Hmm.. you see.. the cervix is kinda deep inside.. and the truth is ..the penis isnt exactly that big..so it wont reach the cervix.. Of course during intercourse you try to go as deep as you can.. but usually you still wont reach the cervix...
Student 2: oh.. so that means the semen is deposited in the vagina??
Teacher: yes.. correct. its only at the vagina.
Student 3: hmm.. the vagina that long mah???
Me: *giggled secretly*

GOSH!! i tell you.. either they sincerely are curious or they just act silly so that the teacher will be in a spot!! and i can tell kelvin was actually quite embarassed. Prolly cos i was observing him!! hehe. but yeah..tsk tsk.. kids kids.. small things excite them so much. hehe.

Everyone's asking me "How's school?".. So i figure that i should put this up in my blog..

Monday was my first day at East View Sec aka EVSS.. Apparently the school was notified about this whole enhanced school experience on friday evening!!! so they were totally not prepared for it. I was the only trainee who came!!! I think the rest are all coming tomorrow.. cos they had to do the content upgrading modules. So there was i...like some extra bugger in school.. so lost and confused.. hopeless and helpless. haha. i had to wait till 8 plus in the general office before i was brought to the staff room.. even so.. i had no table!! i had to sit at the common table where i assume they have their short meetings!! sooooo eww man.. everyone walked past me giving me the look! but most were nice.. they smiled. heh. It was only at ten plus that they gave me a table!!! Throughout the day i sat and stoned. tts it.

I was actually kinda looking forward to school just now cos i was told i might be doing relief today. But but but.. when i wanted to collect my timetable in the office, they told me that all the relief had been given to other teachers!!! One of them even told the other that i cant relief cos i have no experience!!! ouch!! its true that i have no experience.. but cmon.. gimme a chance!! So they told me to sit in the office and wait for them to call. But as expected they didnt call for me. So tts how my second day went. sat and stoned yet again. This time, i slept. i couldnt take it!!! didnt sleep proper yesterday.. so i was soooo dozing off in the office! so cold some more!!!

Talked to a few teachers there.. They are warm and friendly.. so that really helps!! Most of them were very encouraging.. one even told me that if i am looking for satisfaction, teaching is the job.. but if i am looking for money.. then its not!! haha... well... as Mr Goh said, "You cant be rich if you are a teacher. but you wont be poor too..." heh.. Well, money can be earned... so i guess its not that bad. satisfaction helps to nourish the soul. and thats really important in life. Ultimately everyone wants to feel that whatever they are doing is worth the struggle... I will try my very best.. and i will pray to god to help me along the way...

Btw, thanks Vanessa for being motivating and all.. its been really great to have you around!! Yeah man.. what u said is true... u me and prameeta should sit down and set bio papers together!! hehehe.. and sahira.. thks for all the smses too!!!

Collected my grad gown yesterday.. its so huge and not pretty!!! haha. But i shall wear it with pride!!!! werked my ass off to get that man!

Met the gals too ytd.. i was too tired to be chatty and all.. so i kinda toned down.. sorry gals if i was kinda quiet... but it was good to see you all. especially Faridah!!! miss you man..

Okiez.. i got to call my prince charming.. poor him.. been waiting for my call..
See booble... even my darling has to wait cos of you!! hehehe.. *muakz*

Yay!!!! finally i have the time to blog the booble. *stretch*.. been a tiring week! i have been going out almost every day after school. But its been great spending time with frens and boyfren!

Thanks Mas, Khai and Syidah for the great gurls nite out on wed.. so much to share within so little time! But anyways it was fun meeting up with u gals after sooooo long! Mas, hope u like the aromatherapy set!!! And i seriously hope it will sooth those nerves.. but please eh... don't get horny. haha. Tsk tsk. Oh by the way gals.. sorry for the stimulating images. haha. or should i say disturbing. hahaha. * i am not kerek*

I attended a course called Teachers' Preparatory Programme for the past two days. It was really good and useful.. Very motivational too! heh.. as Mr Goh said " Teaching is the best job in the world. Its the mother of all jobs!" heh. That i have yet to decide for myself. Hmm.. guess what. Not too good news. I am posted to East View Sec for the next four weeks!!! HEEEELLLLLPPPP!!! gosh.. not that i hate that school..but i grew up hearing lotsa rumours about it!!! But everyone's been very supportive. Thanks mum, dad and boyfriend.. for those encouraging words for me not to be too scared and nervous about it.

I'm kinda excited for the enhanced school experience. Well.. its not all bad if i have to teach in a notorious school for now... Cos at least that will prepare me for the worse rite.. at least i will be exposed to all the funny bunny tricks of the students. And hopefully with that, i can learn how to manage tough kids!! So that will benefit me for the practicum!!! seee.... it isnt too bad fazleen.. hehehe * me trying to console myself*

Woke up at 1.30 just now. Latest timing so far. i must have been that tired huh. Followed my family to SIA club cos my two dear bros wanted to swim. Spent the time there napping by the pool...how nice!!! Haziq is learning fast. He can do frog style now! and he can float too!! haha.. guess what motivated him?? MONEY!!! Mum offered him money if he can swim well!! What the toot rite! But it was only a few cents.. but haziq being haziq.. even if its five cents, he would still want it! *boo*

I have been thinking about what kinda teacher i wana be.. how to be a teacher whom kids love yet respect. A teacher has all the power in class.

"A teacher can humiliate or humour. Hurt or heal. Humanize or dehumanize."

If you want happiness for an hour, sleep.
If you want happiness for a day, have a picnic.
If you want happiness for a week, go on a vacation.
If you want happiness for a month, get married.
If you want happiness for ten years, inherit wealth.
If you want happiness for a life time, learn to love what you do....

*smilez*

Ok peepz... these are some of the pics i took in Auckland!!! And i totally love them!!! *muakz*

The first geyser for me.

Some of the many animlas in the farm..

I just love this view. Very New Zealand.

Aww.. look at them.. Soooo peaceful..

This is one of my favouritez...

The lake is THAT hot..

See what i mean.. isnt it beautiful..

Pics taken with love.. New Zealand is a beautiful place.

Yesterday was my first day of 'school'. It feels weird. For three years, I alighted at buona vista. Now its Boon Lay. I used to curse 95. Now i queue for 179. And the greatest change is i used to have my gals with me! now its all new friends. familiar faces tho. *thank god*

First day was boring. So was second day. Cos its only registration for now. I cant wait to know which school i will be posted to for the next four weeks. heh.

Sweetheart has been soo nice to me. Spending time with me tho his foot hurts big time. Two points for you dearie. I'm feeling so in love. *muakz* We will get those gorgeous stuffz fron Barang Barang one day kay... Thank you for everything. looking forward to be with you in school! hehe.. syahid rokok says "wan dah kena ikat.. habis ah.." hehehe.

I feel true happiness when i'm with you.

I'm just blardy pissed. Damn blardy pissed.

I was out just for a while and when i came back, one of my earrings is lost and my chair is spoilt. And the irritating is, NOBODY admits guilty. Its not funny bros. I had to work damn hard just to get this chair that has a good back rest. And you boys have to bring everyone into MY room and use the computer. So what happens when all you BOYS are in here??? You lose MY stuff. You spoil MY stuff. ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! dammit.

Somebody save me. I feel like screaming. I feel like crying. Truth been told, i have been feeling frustated these few days. Theres a lot of things i'm not satisfied with. But theres no channel for me to vent it all out. SUCKS. I feel super freaking lousy. I cant wait to meet my gals. Hopefully we can do some retail therapy. Or they can tell me stories that will make me feel better. Or if nothing works, then i'll treat myself to cheese fries. that will usually do the trick.

My journey as a teacher will begin tomorrow. May God bless me. Amin.

Pesta Perdana 8 sucks. So many artists didnt turn up.. i wonder why.. maybe there's some conspiracy going on. haha. But i like that Haz gal. so sweet and very articulate.

Spent the afternoon window shopping with mum. Supposed to get my pants for work.. but my mum kinda got carried away at the household department! she was having fun with all the pots and pans and what have you! Gosh. I was sooo like "can we move on??" hahahaha. she soo doesnt need those extra pots and pans!! but she says she cant help it cos she's a 'kitchen person'. Sheesh. I wonder when i will ever feel that way!! hahaha.

Me and my mum discussed about my financial planning. How i should spent my salary and stuffz. Hmm. interesting dicussion. But alhamdulilah.. i have it all sorted out.

I am getting pretty nervous that NIE is starting this monday. You call it school. I call it work. haha. Gona be sorta alone.. considering my gang wont be there. New frens. New environment. New phase. New challenges. New me? I dont know. Hopefully in a good way.

If i am a guy, my current crush would prolly be Angelina Jolie. Gosh. Watch Mr and Mrs Smith. She's hot. Drop dead gorgeous. Her hair is sooooo niceeeee!! I like!!! and she's really pretty from every angle in that show!!! Anyway its a cool show. Go catch it.

Met pipi after sooo long. He's thinner. heh. Dearie.. hurry up upload the pics then i can see k.. Didnt get to do anything much. Just lunch, movies and tea? haha. cos someone has to go for training....*ehem ehem* I cant wait for you to finish your competition. So that you will have more time for everything else. *hint hint*

So many thoughts in my head.

My dreams. My job. Myself. My relationship. Money. Sheesh. Big issues in my tiny head. The desire is getting stronger. Yet everything is still far away. Nothng is within my reach rite now. Grrr.

Sweedie broke it down to the dollars and cents to show me how far i am from realizing my dreams. Gosh. Thanks dear. Otherwise i'd forever be building castles in the cloud. Kinda hit me about the harsh reality in life. How hard i've got to work to live my dreams. But I'm a very motivated person. So knowing how far i am from what i want will only push me to get nearer. Insyaallah.

Some things in life are worth waiting. *smilez*

One thing leads to another.

I am so feeling like this right now. If there's one thing that can make my self esteem dip to a worrying level, it is my weight. When i say weight, i don't mean the absolute value that i see on the scale, but more on how light or heavy i feel. For most gurls, one of the bestest feelings is that they feel lighter, slimmer, thinner. But for me, that's not funny. I dont like feeling like i have lost weight. I dont like feeling lighter or thinner. I smile when people say i have gained weight or if i look chubby. I was very very thin for a very long time and it sux! Nothing looks good on me. haha. Even XS looks like XL. You get my point? And i cant blame anyone else but myself for not drinking enough milk when i was a baby!!!! Hmpf.

So rite now, yes, you guessed it rite. I feel thinner. Argh. All because of the many days that i dun think i had real good food. I ate. But it didnt feel like proper food. Eating for the past few days was more like a condition so that i wont starve. It was not the heavenly feeling whereby i get to savour the taste of the finger licking good stuffz. So hence, the thin feeling now. Argh. And that leads to me feeling boo.

When i feel boo, i pick on so many things. For example, my hair. Its thin and flat. And i have no idea how to make it not. Could it be the shampooo?? Cos it was not like this before. Argh. Does anyone use Organics? You know they used to come in green bottles. Green only. Now they somehow got 'improved' and come in so many types like 'long and strong', 'smooth and shine', 'soft and silky'... What the hell. Hello..i want all of that. I cant possibly buy all types and mix it up altogether rite!!! I had to choose long and strong cos my hair is long and i want it to be strong???!!! But that means i cant have the smooth and shine and soft and silky and whatever else!!! WHATEVER. does someone know how i feel here?? haha. Crap.

And yah.. i think i got darker cos of ledang. I am not even fair in teh first place. So yah. Haiz.

I hate complaining.

I should be grateful rite. Rite. God doesnt like those who arent grateful.

So what do i have to do? Eat. Feel fatter again. Then my hair will be ok. And i won't be dark. Chaoz.

First to Auckland.. then to Ledang..

Yep yep yep... I'm HOME!!!!! hahaha.. back where my heart belongs! Oh wow.. i am so excited as i am typing this..cos i have so much to share!! Wait..wait..firstly, anyone miss me? haha.. there better be! cos i miss everyone especially my two bros and my pipi dearest!

Ok anyway.. I had such a fantastic vacation... lemme see how do i start.. Ok how about rite before i left singapore??.. here goes..

Rite before i left the airport, my dad received an sms from my bro faris that my uncle in JB just passed away.. *innalillah* My whole family was shocked at the sudden news. We thought of camcelling the trip actually but because quite a few arrangements have been made and it was only a few more hours to our flight, we had to go on with our plans... but really.. our condolescences to my aunt and family at JB..

Sweetheart sent me to the airport.. waving goodbye to him was so hard.. i wanted to cry. I miss him the moment i walked past the gate. Flight was fine.

Reached Auckland city in the morning.. well nothing much in the city.. just sightseeing.. everything is just so freaking expensive!!! Stayed in the city only for a nite.

Next morning we took a bus to a small town further down..called Rotorua.. its really really beautiful.. Never been to such a place. Its so peaceful down there with nature at its truest magic. Rotorua is a volcanic area...so yeah.. u can see LOTS of hot springs and geysers especially at this place called Waimangu, one of the tourist attractions. It was so WOW.. Imagine this..clear blue lakes with hot steam evaporating from it. Soooo hot that the steam looks like passing clouds amidst the trees in the forest!! The lakes were crater lakes formed from the volcanic eruption many years ago.. heh. seriously.
Dad rented a van to travel around there. 6 of us in a 11 seater. Haha. and man was i nervous for my dad.. We didnt know the roads and my dad never drove a van before.. so it was kinda scary. haha. thank god we managed to get around safely. *three points for my dad*

We made a visit to the Maori village. The Maori are the ancestors of Rotorua. So the visit was cool cos i learnt quite a bit about their history, myths and culture. Very interesting indeed. After the village we headed down to another small town called Taupo. It was soo freezing cold down there.. but the lake was worth the trip!! heh..

Had a real good experience at the farmhouse too. Its called the Agrodome. I got to play with all the sheeps (there's 18 different types by the way.. hehe) and imu and all kinds of farm animals that i dunno their names. haha.. but it was so cool to feed them and just be in the open fields and on the hills with the animals!!! felt like a farm girl!!

Heh.. so all in all.. Auckland is a great place to visit..not the city but the small towns ok..*thanks shaq for recommending me the places.. all your information came in handy!!*

Wokiez.. so the next destination was ledang.

Gunung Ledang was a real challenge for me!!! Who the hell says its not a bad hike up the summit???!!!! It was god damn tiring!!!!!!! Gosh.. there were too many times i felt like giving up! i believe there is an easier route up.. but i seriously don't think my route is the easy one!! Man.. i was like a spiderwoman.. climbing up the rocks at like close to 90 degrees???!!! And the fact that i am shit scared of heights! Boy am i proud of myself or what!! hahahaha.

It was a really good experience to hike up to the summit. Tested my physical and mental strength to its limits.You dont know how tight my muscles are rite now!! and how my body aches so much!!!!! hahahaha. Did so many things that i have never done before like bathing in the river.. drank river water (..which has lotsa fishes..so it makes it look a bit more eww).. nite walks.. ate baked beans and tuna rite from the cans ( i usually heat them up first ok) cooked maggi and rice using river water..ate extremely diluted campbell mushroom soup cos one can must be shared among 10 ppl!!! And of course, carried a freaking heavy bag for 3/4 of the whole hike!!! i think i'm shorter now cos of the weight!! *like as if i'm not short enough! hmpf* The hike was tough cos of the extremely limited amount of water we had. i felt like i would do anything just to get water! It was sooo steep and i had to squeeze in between trees and rocks and what nots. Climbed up the rocks with the ropes and stuffs.. anything that could be grabbed was grabbed just so i did not fall!

The summit was soo beautiful. Damn nice view up there!! *awww....* i felt like tearing man.. cos it was such a touching moment!!! I looked down and thought "Wow. I actually climbed all the way up" It was a real self achievement. *ten points for me*

The way down from summit to base camp was freaking dangerous. Not as tiring but definitely scarier. Thank god the guys were there to help!! Gosh.. in times like this, i agree that men are the stronger species. haha. Gosh.. you should see how brave those boys were!!! They were soooo happy sliding down the blardy steep slopes and easily jumped from one rock to another!! Tho sumtimes they fell and almost hit something.. they were still so onz!!!! But as playful as they were, they were really sweet..guided the gals down the slopes..and of course after that they self proclaimed to be the macho man. haha. Men. The ego will always be there. haha.

Nobody believed i am 22 this year especially the kids!!! they thought i was at most 19! at least 16!! And one boy hit on me. guess the age. thirteen. YES!! THAT YOUNG! gosh. i dunno if i should feel insulted or otherwise. 13???!! What the %^&*!!!

But the whole camp was so fun. Secondary school kids are definitely very different from those primary school kids i had for last year camp. Teenagers arent easy to handle. One wrong move, they'll bitch about you. haha. The kids were playful, loud.. some vulgar.. but they are actually really nice kids with a heart that cares. I think they just lack of love and attention.. It feels really good when they opened up to you.. cos it shows that in some ways they trusted you enough to tell you about their life story and problems. I was more than honoured to listen and share my thoughts with them. Its not easy to be their friend yet at the same time firm.

So many of my gals smoke.. Some still got the cheek to ask me to help them smuggle the cigarettes! No way i am gona do that. sheesh. C'mon gals. Don't smoke. For the simple reason that it has bad health consequences.

I miss the gals. Hot Chicks. Thats what we called ourselves. And we are hot. haha. Thanks gals for all the fun, the highs and the lows we went thru together as a team. I learnt so much from you peeps. And i hope that i have touched your hearts in some way. Muakz.

And that will be my first and last trip to gunung ledang. cos one climb is seriously enuff!! it is THAT tiring. haha. But you know what.. i think i have lost some weight and less babatz now. haha.

1 more week before NIE starts. *gulp*

Hey booble..thot i wana write in again cos just now was kinda in a rush. Just came back from visiting my little cousin who just got circumsized. (is this the rite spelling?) heh... anyway, gosh, i was half expecting him to be sitting down quietly on the sofa. But no... he was running around already!!! So 'strong' huh! I remembered when Haziq my smallest bro had his. He was soooo 'weak'.. as tho he just gave birth or something!! *haziq boo*

My dad wanted to 'check' my cousin's ****. ( he is seven years old by the way) He was shy at first.. but then..
Dad: Come let uncle check..
Cousin: Dowan... I shy..
Dad: Come... i will see a bit only..
Cousin: Dowan...
Dad: If you dont let me check you wont get money ok..
Cousin: (brightened eyes) Hmmm.. ok lah you can check now. *grinz*

Hah.. sometimes even kids sell their pride for money!! Thank god i am a GURL.

Me and Syidah came up with a hypothesis yesterday..
Cute guys are a TURN OFF (usually cos of their character )
NOT cute guys are NOT a TURN ON.

Is it better to be turned off or not turned on?? haha. I have no idea.

So what kind of guys then turn girls on??

If you ask me, i'll say guys with INTELLECT. Guys.. its the mind that needs the stimulation.

I woke up thinking.. WOW.. i am going auckland today!! heh..

Yesternight was really fun!!! It was such a great gurls nite out! Wished Fa was there.. She'll surely add to the laughters! Met up with Syidah at town to get *secret* then we kinda window shopped a bit.. Updated her about some spicy stories of mine. Me and her both wana get a three quarter cardigan. We realized that nice long sleeved tops are damn ex. Cheap nice ones are usually halters or sleeveless!! Don't you think so??? Hence the need to buy the cardigan! Oh we have a second reason too.. which i AIN'T telling.. haha. *blueks*

Supposed to meet the gals at 7.00.. but me and syidah had to wait till 8.00!!! *ehem ehem*
Wanted to eat at delifrance.. but both outlets at citylink and suntec were pathetic. Not enough food!! Eventually, we made do with BK.

I think we mite have been a little bit too noisy gals! But heck.. we were having a real good time.. Topic of the nite was graduation and our own prom!! This is Baya's idea by the way.. *hope there is an XS graduation gown for me!* Anyway, i'm so thrilled about this whole prom thinghy!! we have a couple of themes such as Elegance, Extreme Retro or Fairytale.. heh.. Euni wanted to be the beanstalk without the Jack. And her costume will be long beans!! hahahaha.. *so cute lah u* Khai can be red riding hood.. and she just needs a red scarf! Anyway gals.. i hope it will happen! we and our sweet nothings!

Thanks babes for the night of laughters!!!

Stupid perveted apek. What see see. Never see before isit. Arse. CHIKOPEK!

Thanks dearie for the day out on wednesday. Thanks for accompanying me to school. It was just soo relaxing to chill out at east coast. Finally i get to read a book by the beach!!! And dear.. u are by far.. the ONLY person whom I allowed to tickle my feet!! Hmpf. You got my weak spot! But it IS vulnerable ok. heh.

Ok booble, think i better help pack the luggage..!!!