i am in a certain phase but i am not too sure what it is exactly. Its not adolescence cos i'm way too old for that. Could it be young adulthood?

Whatever the phase i am going through, its not easy. Suddenly i think of so many things. Suddenly i have so many needs and many more wants. When i was a student, my main concern was my studies. studies was high on top of my priority list. Now, that list seems super long.

School was relatively predictable. Take 5 modules each semester and sit for an exam at the end of it. Exams sucks but it will somehow turn out ok. Holidays are for real.

I have just embarked on what i plan to be my professional career and I really wana make this happen. I want to earn as much as i can. I want to have a comfortable life. who doesnt right?
but money doesnt come easy. earning is one thing. saving is another. how much is considered a good pay? how much should i save? how much CAN i save? how long would it take for me to afford a house? maybe its too soon for me to be wishing for a house.. but seriously, i keep on thinking about this.

I used to not care about branded bags or diamond rings.. and the cheaper the clothes, the better. but now i find myself looking at branded bags, solitaires, posh clothes... its NOT like i can afford them tho..*i wish i can just pick and pay* but i want them more than i used to in the past. so... i'm kinda werried.. am i getting more materialistic? or is it just a change of taste? now dun get me wrong, i still prefer cheap clothes and stuffz.. i mean why not?? as long as they look good, it doesnt matter that they are cheap.. but a part of me also wish for the luxury to splurge.

still thinking.