today wasn't a good day. lessons weren't great. long long day at work. issues. sigh.

two questions on my mind.

1) what kind of a teacher am i?

2) what kind of a friend am i?

a good teacher. what does it mean to be one? what does it take to be one? what is it that students look for in a teacher? what is it about a teacher that makes students feel happy and interested when she steps into class? i have seven classes. each and every class is unique. different set of characters and different ways of dealing with them. i have yet to find out that secret magic formulae to being a good teacher. at least, a good one in the eyes of the student. nothing beats the feeling of having students telling u that they enjoy ur class. i wish i am that good teacher. tho i might not be one now, i believe that one day, i would be able to unravel the secret to being a good teacher. of course i hope that day would coem soon. meanwhile, i'll keep on learning and take everything with a pinch of salt.

then how about me as a friend? a good friend? what is a a good friend? one who is there for u all the time? one who shares ur joy and sorrow? my idea of a good friend is sumone whom i can talk to and listen to. someone whom i know i can turn to when the whole world collapses on me. if i wish for such a friend, then question is, am i that kind of friend? have i been there for my friends who need me? have i been too busy with my life that friends feel neglected? i've been busy for the longest time that i can remember. since secondary school, i have always been busy. busy with school. exams. it doesnt end. but, the difference is, throughout those busy periods, friends were always there. we stood by each other. the cruel thing about working world is that it has a high potential of drifting people apart. i wish i can spend every saturday with friends. but sumtimes, due to work demands, i have to make unpopular decisions. i feel sad. but i dont want to keep feeling sad. i know work can sumtimes put a strain on other issues. but i also know that there are other important things in life that matters. to all those reading this, i just want to say that, if i haven been the best of a friend should be, i give u my sincere apologies.

my hectic period would be over soon. and do let me make it up. i promise. no matter how busy i am or how distant i may seem, just so u know, it doesnt mean that the frenship is of less value to me. a strong frenship withstands the test of time and it survives obstacles. i believe that for me and you, my special ones, ours is a strong frenship. there may be glitches along the way, but we'll find each other again. promise.