i finally finished the paper. phew.

its one week away to my trip!! cant believe it.. all the planning that started in august is now becoming more and more real.. best kannnnn...!!

anyways, everyones been telling me that me and my gals will sure fight during the trip. well, i do expect some arguements, disagreements.. but i guess thats normal right.. 12 days together!! bound to quarrel! but but but.. i really hope it would just be harmless squabbles.. no cat fights and no pulling of hairs and stuffz k.. we r gona stay cool as a pack.. no matter what happens, we are still gona be frens.. lets make this a trip that will bond all of us even stronger.. as long as everyone puts in effort to avoid nasty conflicts, everything shd be ok.. as long as someone is sane enuff to rationalise stuffz, we will be fine insyallah..

by the way guys, u all would be able to know if i am nt happy... my face will show it all.. cant hide my feelings.. thats why ppl say i'm like an open book ... easy to read.. hate it really. wish i am not so transparent.

its already tues. one more day to wed. yay yay.

class 95 always play the best sappy love songs.. tho i will start to feel emo nemo, i still love it... anyways, i recently attended a wedding that was done in a very very simple way. just the ROMM for the solemnisation procedure and the bride and groom return home where the closest family members were waiting.. said some prayers and everyone eats to their hearts' content. tho simple, i think its kinda more meaningful. i am seriously not into those grand weddings whereby anyone and everyone would be invited. i mean seriously.. whats the point?? for me, what matters most is the solemnisation and that my family and closest friends are there to share one of the happiest moments of my life.. i'm thinking that mine will prolly be a simple affair too.. but maybe to save my family the trouble of cooking and cleaning up, i'd make it at a ballroom.. in fact, i like the ballroom at yishun safra country club.. thot it was quite nice.. a ballroom dinner would be sweet isnt it? a one night function... buffet style.. speeches by the important peepz in my life.. loads of picture taking and thanking every single guess who came.. hehe.. see see.. the effects love songs have on me.....sheesh. now back to reality.. yikes. long long way to go fazleen.

anyways, a fren of mine asked if i have ever reached a stage in the relationship where its all too familiar... well, i guess everyone will eventually reach that stage at some point in their relationship. the question is, when it reaches that point, is it just mere stagnance or has it developed into something more mature.... yeah things might get kinda routine after a while.. but as what mr R.J always tells me.. the flame cant burn itself.. and it can die.. but its up to us to make sure that its always burning.. and we gotto consciously constantly put in the effort to keep it alive.. most ppl start off with tt honeymoon stage where u get goosebumps just by hearing his voice..and u try so hard to please him.. and u wait by the phone for his call.. spend sleepless nights talking about nothing.. well i guess, this might fade away as u move on to something more real and less fantasy like.. the phone calls still matter.. the conversations too.. but its not as crucial...a greater concern would be what the conversation is actually about.. isit still at a superificial level or are you already able to reveal ur truest insecurity.. talk about your deepest fears and greatest dreams.. be whom u truly are without having to worry of being judged.. its not so much of realising whats common between the two of u.. but realising what needs to be done to bridge the differences..

just like a frenship.. it always start of with sharing of laughters.. but its when u know tt u can also share the tears is when u realise that its not just a friend.. but a blesssing from God.. the kind of love towards a fren who laffs with u and a fren who cries with u is definitely different.. so i guess its similar to ppl who have been together for a long time.. familiarity will definitely occur.. but it doesnt mean tt the love has died.. it could just mean tt it has taken on a different form... and it is prolly expressed in different ways..