gosh. its wed. and its gona be thurs in a few minutes. and blink blink it wld soon be time to head off for the airport.

i have started packing since few days back and i am STILL packing. this is the trouble with travelling in winter. i dont know what to bring. haha.

i'm pretty nervous yet excited. it had been a one year wait you know!

there's SO many things i am worried about!

the weather. if i have enough warm clothings. the money. the transport around egypt. the weather in the desert. the fact tt we have no men travelling with us. reny. gosh. i am so worried abt all these!!

so many things to do tmr. visiting. packing (again!)argh.

i hope and pray everything will be fine for me and my frens. hopefully our trip goes smoothly as planned. May God protect us from danger and keep us safe and healthy and happy! May things turn bette for my bestie too.. i'll be praying fr u still dear from egypt.

my fav pink fon is kaput. me and my itchy wet fingers. hmpf. i spoiled my own beloved fon. and the best thing is i just signed up for a new contract and gave the chance to get a new fon to my bro. and i am pretty much broke rite now to buy a fon without line. well, not completely broke. more like i have other priorities at the moment! gosh. the last thing i need is a spoilt fon! and i have to use my bro's old fon. which is really boo.

health is ur ultimate wealth. never ever take it for granted. cherish life. love and do not hate. and if u love, show it. prove it.

the love in the heart is not meant to stay.
the love in the heart is to be given away.

met up with the girls to do some last minute planning for egypt.

gosh. NINE more days. from one year to nine more days! wat a countdown. and time flies!!!

we are pretty excited but oh so nervous too!!

supposed to visit reny but she told us to come tmr. she must be relieved to be back home. thank god they are safely back!

will be gg to nad's hse on sat to settle our finances.. haha.. nad needs to take out her duit cawan.. haha.. and give to many other cawans.. and we plan to go to GIANT to buy our foodpack! woohoo.

went out with my family to celebrate haziqs bday. he got his prezzies and a treat at Arnolds. Haziqs turning 11 on the 23rd. my small bro isnt so small after all! haha.
but the sis still small :P

just some thots..

a man that stimulates the mind stimulates every part of the woman's body.

smart men ticks.

gorgeoug women gets their way.

been a week since i turned 24.. i haven had the chance to reflect on how the past year had been.. the 23rd year of my life..

well finally today, i can do some thinking..

chapter 23 was pretty exciting.. a lot of drama..emotions..its like the climax of a movie.

highlights of chapter 23..

personal:
i made one of the most difficult decisions ever.. in july 2007.. i dun think i have to go into details.. if u know it, then u know it. i learnt a lot from it.. even up to this day, i still reflect on the decision i made.

and then i made another important decision.. in october 07.. i hope this time around, i made the right choice. i cant deny the fear of failing once again.. i'm constantly keeping faith and praying for the best outcome..

my weight went up and down.. down during school term.. up during holidays.. and its really up rite now. hehe. i'm at my heaviest. haha.

didnt shop much when i was 23.. dun ask me why.. maybe i had not much time.. maybe i lost touch with my shopping craze.. maybe i always end up spending my money for other things..

still saving to meet my 2007 target. waiting for the bonus! cant wait for them to reveal the bonus! cos i need to know how much i can spend at the end of the year!!

managed to go to BKK for the first time!! a bit late rite.. ppl go BKK at 18... i went at 23... haha. well anyways it was hell lot of fun. cos i went with a group of happening ppl! and who else could they be if not my colleagues!! yah mab.. the bankokers.. haha.

family:
nothing much has changed.. we still love each other a lot.. i love them more and more as each day passes by..

friends:
nothing much has changed too.. i'm still blessed with my darling girlfrens who were there for me during my tough times.. giving me support and a listening ear anywhere, anytime.. love them to bits.. and of cos not to forget, the trip that bonded us so much.. the aussie mossie trip!! that was back in dec 06.. till today, i reminisced. i swear i wana go thru the whole experience again. every second of it. i really really really miss it.

work:
from a BT, to a CT. It was fun! I had a wonderful class, 1I. i'll miss them for sure.. hope they'll miss me too. i had a memorable journey of preparing my graduating kids for the O levels.. and i will really miss them too. Guess in a teachers life, we have to say " students come.. students go.." had a few memorable occassions like sec 1 bonding camp..when i did the chicken dance on the canteen table, dressed up like a pretty burito during youth day.. did publicity talks to primary school students.. standing on stage in front of the whole school to tell a story about frogs.. hehe.. but its all good.. :)

so.. generally thats how my 23rd year had been.. lots of tears, heart aches, confusion, decision making.. but i guess it all happened for a reason.. and theres always a blessing in disguise..

so what do i wish for chapter 24?

i wish for one thing and that is HAPPINESS. i hope my dreams will come true and i pray that love wont turn its back on me again.

Happy Birthday to my beloved bestie.. KHAIRUN!!!

Hey babe.. you know that i love you. but do u know that i love you to bits?? hehe.

anyways, happy happy birthday darling!! better cherish this bday cos next year wont be the same! if you know what i mean..!!

on a sweeter note,

mirror mirror on the wall...
who is my bestie of all times...

Khairun!! haha.. *jeng jeng jeng*

i wish you a lifetime of happiness sweetheart.. cos its what that matters! life is about being happy.. even when things dont go our way, its when we count our blessings that we feel a little better. every good thing deserves a smile. and every smile will bring some happiness. if i could smile for u each day, i would.

i love u. with all my heart.

God bless a beautiful soul like you.

what is the best thing that has ever happened to you?

my fave phrase from the show Game Plan.

Great show. Catch it.

so.. answer my question..

the best thing that has ever happened to me is.... * only i know the answer *


sumtimes i wish u knew.

i wana put up my DnD pics but seems to have a lil bit of a problemo with photobucket! grr.

mount sinai looks gorgeous!

so how nad?

i had a wonderful 24th birthday.

Celebrated it on the 10th with my special someone. It was simple and romantic. i like. *goosebumps* Thank you sweetheart.

Celebrated it again on the 11th with my beloved family. It was a fattening affair. My bro gave a treat to the whole family at Simpang Bedok and boy was it a feast! I swear i felt super duper mambo jumbo ultra fat ok! but it was all good... Thanks Odel.

I got gifts from my beloved ones. and i really like each and every gift.

always close to my heart.

Thank YOU for making it special.

Hey peepz.. i got this from one of my meetings.. Just thot i'd wana share..

I TRY TO LISTEN BETTER NOW

When God gave out brains,
I thought He said trains,
And i missed mine.

When God gave out looks,
I thought He said books,
And i didnt want any.

When God gave out noses,
i thought he said roses,
And i asked for a red one.

When God gave out legs,
I thought he said cakes,
And i asked for two rounds.

When God gave out chins,
I thought he said gins,
And i ordered a double.

When God gave out heads,
I thought he said beds,
And i asked for a soft one.

Since then,
I;m trying to listen better.

i am sooooo bored rite now.

slowly packing my stuffz for the holiday. getting more excited by the day. just really worried for reny. hopefully her mum gets well soon and the whole family can come back safely. reny, our prayers are with u k girl.. *hugs*

i love my birthday gift. thanks dear. the gift will remind me that you are always close to my heart. *smilez*

i am looking forward to tomorrow. even if its a simple one, i know it will still be special.

i'm extremely upset. for a couple of reasons. i wish i can just shout out loud.

i feel terrible. not sure how it will turn out when the day comes. suddenly i have no confidence. i wish i just didnt know about it. such discouraging feedback. my heart just sank.

i feel angry. cos i dont know just what the heck they are trying to do. excuses. one after another. i've been patient enuff and i've reached the limits. i'm not a fool. so stop treating me like one.

i feel sad. some things we do seems to be in vain. action speaks louder than words. a little appreciation goes a long way. if only everyone believes in that.

hopefully something good happens to me.

all i ever need is a gentle soul who showers me with love and happiness.

if only u could hear the whispers of my heart
if only u could taste the sweetness of my desires
if only u could feel the intense craving
if only u dream of whats on my mind
i wish u'd love me the right way
but i still love you anyway

the seven years itch.

some go through. some dont. i did. over and done with it.

sabar and baik sangka. two most important things to keep a marriage going. in the words of my much respected cikgu. sabar meaning patience and baik sangka meaning having faith and good thoughts.

marriage requires a lot of effort which must be continuous too.

the whole hari raya outing was pretty much centred on the topic of marriage. since khai and mas are getting married. it was kinda weird. to have such a serious 'talk' during the visit. syidah and me didnt feel it as much as the ones getting married. but it definitely sets me thinking.

kinda scary. i wonder how it feels to be two weeks away from the wedding. hmm.

and talk about that, it will be a pretty exciting november. besides my bday, i have to attend the 3-nite affair for mas wedding. the ber-inai and nikah and sanding. wow. must prepare three different outfits. haha. as if i am the one getting married! well i am excited for her definitely. happy too that she's gona be a wife. heh. its a whole new world ahead for her. and khai's would be very soon.

and after mas's wedding, i'd be all geared up for the egypt trip. yay.

so cikgu asked when wld be mine and syidah's turn. hmm. insyallah. one fine day.

its so different hanging out with my frens who are still dating and those getting married.. the things we talk about.. the way we carry ourselves... the whole feel is different. and somehow i find myself somewhere in btw.

so engagement seems to be a very trying period. i'm sure it is. so many things to discuss about. the wedding. the house. the possibility of having kids. the way the family will be run. the getting to know each other's family. the saving up. weow. so many decision making. conflicts. differences. hmm. interesting. but i'm sure at the end of the day, it would be a worthwhile journey. i guess proper planning and a lot of compromise would be needed. scary yet exciting.

i am having my pms. it sucks big time. i feel so whiny. and so easily irritated. yucks. i feel like i need all the attention in the world. and i feel like i need to be pleased in every possible way. watever. these mood swings better go away fast. it frustates me.

cant wait to meet xf for window shopping. and of cos chit chat! so much to share with her. guess i will be letting out all my erratic feelings to her. i feel like theres so much bottled up in me that i need to just puke everything out.

wishing. thinking. wishing.