the seven years itch.

some go through. some dont. i did. over and done with it.

sabar and baik sangka. two most important things to keep a marriage going. in the words of my much respected cikgu. sabar meaning patience and baik sangka meaning having faith and good thoughts.

marriage requires a lot of effort which must be continuous too.

the whole hari raya outing was pretty much centred on the topic of marriage. since khai and mas are getting married. it was kinda weird. to have such a serious 'talk' during the visit. syidah and me didnt feel it as much as the ones getting married. but it definitely sets me thinking.

kinda scary. i wonder how it feels to be two weeks away from the wedding. hmm.

and talk about that, it will be a pretty exciting november. besides my bday, i have to attend the 3-nite affair for mas wedding. the ber-inai and nikah and sanding. wow. must prepare three different outfits. haha. as if i am the one getting married! well i am excited for her definitely. happy too that she's gona be a wife. heh. its a whole new world ahead for her. and khai's would be very soon.

and after mas's wedding, i'd be all geared up for the egypt trip. yay.

so cikgu asked when wld be mine and syidah's turn. hmm. insyallah. one fine day.

its so different hanging out with my frens who are still dating and those getting married.. the things we talk about.. the way we carry ourselves... the whole feel is different. and somehow i find myself somewhere in btw.

so engagement seems to be a very trying period. i'm sure it is. so many things to discuss about. the wedding. the house. the possibility of having kids. the way the family will be run. the getting to know each other's family. the saving up. weow. so many decision making. conflicts. differences. hmm. interesting. but i'm sure at the end of the day, it would be a worthwhile journey. i guess proper planning and a lot of compromise would be needed. scary yet exciting.

i am having my pms. it sucks big time. i feel so whiny. and so easily irritated. yucks. i feel like i need all the attention in the world. and i feel like i need to be pleased in every possible way. watever. these mood swings better go away fast. it frustates me.

cant wait to meet xf for window shopping. and of cos chit chat! so much to share with her. guess i will be letting out all my erratic feelings to her. i feel like theres so much bottled up in me that i need to just puke everything out.

wishing. thinking. wishing.