the past few days had been full of girl talk and my own thinking through of stuffz.

had a good talk with reny about the What IFs in life. Me and Reny are two thinking machines. Thinking seems to be our default mode. and that sux big time. cos we think too much. But reny did share some meaningful thots on the What IFs. theres just too many what ifs. but whats the meaning of thinking about the IFs cos it didnt happen that way anyway. Whats the point of questioning why certain things happened cos it already happened. Reny is gg thru a grieving process and as she does, she learns a lot of things which she shared with me. We both agreed that we want someone who isnt there with us only during happy times but to also be by our sides when we are at our lowest. and when u say I LOVE YOU, just how much do you actually love the person..

me and reny were discussing about the diff types of men we have come across..

- the 'smart' one who makes us look and feel stupid
- the sweet talker who's full of honeyed words
- the persistant one who mite appear desperate at times
- the over confident one who seems so pretentious and full of ego
- the patient one who takes all our shit but still lack of some 'essential criteria'
- the temperamental one
- the manipulative one
- the BORING one
- the PIOUS one
- the one who doesnt praise (every girl needs to be praised..why men just dont get this simple rule?)

hehe. maybe thats why our lives is a tad complicated. theres just too many different kinds out there. hehehe. and what nad said is true.. if we can need sooooo long just to choose the right pair of shoes, what more when we wana choose the man whom we gona spend the rest of our lives with!! Of cos we would think damn much cos we want the BEST. amd i think we have every right to do that. hehe. but one thing i've learnt, theres no PERFECT match. and i mean PERFECT. so its a matter of how we can live with the differences. some differences are way off. some differences are worth adapting to.

had a meaningful talk with kima too. gosh.. my dear childhood fren is happily married with the love of her life. i'm so envious!! in a good way of cos.. sumhow talking to her inspired me.. hehehe. i'm just really really happy for her cos she has gotten the happiness she deserves. She gave me some useful advice and survival tips. thanks girl. i totally appreciate your views.

was supposed to meet mas and khai and syidah for WOMENs talk..but too bad i cldnt make it. thanks to being sorta grounded. boo. well anyways, it did me good cos i had so much time to myself to think about stuffz.

i got down to listing the things i wanted for my wedding and plan a timeline on when to do what. kima said i'm so organised and its a good thing! so, huge pat for me! now i'm thinking of the financial part. thinking on how i should go about it.

there seems to be so much to think about. hahaha. but oklah...seems quite exciting.

i've assigned roles to some of my frens for the wedding preps..
nad - media surveyor (helps me to surf the net for weddings stuffz since she is always online with me!)
khai and fa - advisor (since they have gone thru the experience)
xuefen - the one who will knock sense into me (cos she is sooo practical she will have to make sure i dun get swayed by temptations)
reny - the insider (since she knows what goes on backstage, she wld be able to give me some 'under table' info)
baya - maybe my food taster? (not sure yet cos i think catering will be under my mum's charge)
euni and syidah - help me look thru mags? (i know syidah is always free at work.. but euni is always bz.. so its ok if she cant..)

and everyone is welcomed to follow me go survey around. i definitely will need some girl companion at times!

the CNY break has been a good break so far. cos i have been at home most of the time. slept. marked. and now its saturday. going to do some work. supposed to go to khai's place later but i feel sooo damn lazy can.. boo! and gosh talk abt khai..my bestie is gona be married in a mths time!!! exciting kan. lucky girl. dapat hubby. dapat rumah. hehe.

ok i think i have blogged enuff. gona do some work now. i so wana savour every second of this break. cos once monday comes, everythings gona be on bullet train mode. its gona be week 7!! so fast! gosh.

ok peepz. till my next free time.