i am just so glad Monday is over! thank God it went smoothly.

and we finally cleared our queries. yay. my first time there.

cant wait for Labour Day. *yay*

harold and kumar was funny! and i loved the poem Square root of 3.. touching!

anticipating May.

hope all goes well too :)

i feel extra tired today. four hours straight with no prior lunch. i was gg flat towards 3.30.. and the hot weather didnt help.

week 6. and i can really feel the drain. cant wait for friday. next week will be a short thanks to exams and labour day! yay.

i'm super distracted!! so much thoughts and imagination is going on in my tiny head. *winks*

thank YOU.

today is such a boring day. woke up early to go to school. chem therapy session. had to eat indomee in my tiny mug cos i had no time to grab a proper breakfast. went back to have lunch and out again to pasir ris for a while. came back and sleep. and thruout, i just felt really blah the whole day. i dun really like this feeling.

restless. its coming to may. but oh well. doesnt make any difference.

five more months to the Big O's and i am getting freaking worried for all my graduating classes. this year's pretty tough cos i am taking 4 graduating classes. 3 taking O levels and 1 taking N levels. geez. and with Bio having the new syllabus. its almost as good as doing it for the first time. but like what i was told before "the first time doesnt mean it has to be bad".. and i guess my first time in 2007 was quite allright..as nervous as i was last year, this year, its triple the load. i think i'll be a zombified wreck in term 4. but sumwhere deep in my heart, something's telling me that the kids will be able to do well at the end of the day..and i pray that they will have a happy ending. sometimes teaching doesnt feel like a job.. it just feels like a lifestyle.. haha. *hmm* about 2 more weeks of teaching before the mid year exams kick in. the clock is ticking really fast. my dear students, time to wake up and focus.

guess i am gona spend my june jolidays having extra lessons for the grad classes. and band practise. haha. when nad and xf are in europe.. and baya and fa are in US...gosh.. i really have to console myself big time and sumhow come up with a big fat lie for myself that my holidays can still be exciting. my only hope for it to be more happening is THE preps. but even that, i'm not too sure too.

this year feels a tad different cos i dun have that DEC trip to look forward too. for the past two years, every day seems a bit easier when i think of the big reward at the end of the year. but this year, there's no reward at the finishing line. so how do i make this race feel more survivable??

been thinking about dreams and desires. goals and aspirations. what is life without a dream. a dream remains a dream if nothing is acted upon. as idealistic as i am, i do believe that dreams can come true.. and what have i been doing all my life..i've been very committed in bringing myself closer to realise my dreams. a step at a time. but i never stopped believing. and i never stopped wanting it. i push myself and sumtimes i push myself hard. sometimes i do ask myself if its worth it cos life's unpredictable anyway. but i guess that stuborn part of me always puts me back at the path where i wana be. i just hope that along the way, God will help me and shower me with his blessings amidst the challenges.

wldnt it be easier if all were earthians rather than martians and venusians. two different worlds who cant be without another. how ironic.

tell me the gameplan. cos my enthusiasm is running low.

finally went for a shopping spree. tho i didnt buy much. only managed to get a pair of shoes, pants and a dress. finally i bought shoes. i actually liked another pair but no size.. as usual!! grrr. wanted to get flats but ended up with heels. of well, i bought it still since even heels is hard to get for my tiny weeny feet. so now i have to keep on searching for the flats. hahaha. i love the dress that i bought! finally a white one! yay. the pants is SO-SO.. black office pants. how interesting can it get. BORING.

someone was so happy with three tops and pants and jeans. heh. finally!

saw a wallet that i quite like. undecided if i should get it. sigh. wanted to buy a bag but the shop was closed. gosh.. so many shops were closed. whats up with that!

parking fetched up to $10.70. How ridiculous. argh. heartpain. having a car squeezes the cents out of the pockets. tho i wasnt the one paying, i cld still feel the pinch.

i'm not satisfied yet! still wana shoppppp....till the next time that i am free.

been such a hectic week and yet theres more to come. i wish i can be a tai tai at times. sleep till noon.. wake up with breakfast or brunch in bed.. milk bath.. hahaha. rite. in my greatest dreams.

finally its all good. i guess.

00181. surprise surprise. well, lets wait and see and hope for the best.

was a tad biased initially. i can be really superficial at times. but at closer look, it aint too bad after all. slowly opening up to it. the thot excites me.

sports carnival coming up this sat. hopefully i get to have a girls day out on sat. and sun has been reserved for shopping! when was the last time i did that!! so, gear up fr the long awaited spree... muahahahaha *evil lafter*

the second one. :)

i'm just waiting.

its already april. how time flies.

been reflecting for quite a bit for the past few days. i miss so many things. i miss school. i miss being 20. i miss my gfs. i miss NUS. i miss being a student. i miss tasmania and melbourne. i miss egypt. i miss those good times. i miss having fun. i miss the cheap thrills. i miss laffing out loud at fast food places. i miss having the time to day dream. i miss the strolls and the sprees. i miss binging. i miss the past.

so much has changed i guess. one step further but reality still hasnt set in. cos nothing much has been done thus far. sometimes i am scared. of whats to come. denying the fact tt i am turning 25 this year. a quarter of a century. gosh, suddenly i dun seem so youthful anymore. teen-age is way over. young adult? perhaps.

i wish for a million things.
my mind doesnt stop wondering.
my brain is forever thinking.
if only life is as ideal as i imagine it to be.
imperfections.