i am ALL smiles and i am so very happy!! cos someone has finally said YES to my wish! all the effort has been worthwhile! YAY!!! i must prolly cross out this date cos its a BIG thing to have this wish of mine granted. i am clapping my hands rite now. haha. to myself. haha.

so now i cant wait to be in purple! yay. got raya mood already. *winks*

thank you thank you thank you.

*big fat grin*

i just came back from geylang. for someone who is not really feeling the raya mood, i am surprised i have been there thrice. well, all for a purpose tho. the first trip was a 30 minute affair just to get some ladies stuffz. the second and third was a mission almost impossible. to find IT. sheesh.

but finally, after all the kepenatan, kepeningan, kepanasan, kerimasan, ke-stress-an, keboringan and ketekunan, i found IT. i endured my neckache and headache just to find IT. and i must thank my mum for accompanying me thruout and putting up with all my fuss. thank YOU. it was like finding a needle in a stack of hay! hope all the effort is worthwhile tho.

bumped into so many ppl at geylang. bestfren, old fren, students, uncle, auntie, ex-acquaitances, ex-colleagues. seems liek the whole world was there. sheesh. thats one of the many reasons why i hate going geylang.

rite now i am just really tired.

*if u could see right thru this*

i was in pain for the past two days. my neck was the stiffest ever. it must have been the result of months of staring down at my lap top since i like to place my lap top on my lap. haha. and plus my pathetic sleeping posture. i have the whole bed to myself but i sleep like a prawn. all curled up in one tiny corner. and so my neck decided to go on strike and refused to work! it was bad on monday especially after i baked the cookies. but i pressed on to go to work on tuesday cos of ASP and i had to print the exam papers. and i guess it was a bad decision cos my the time i knocked off, the pain was unbearable. i cldnt drive safely cos i cldnt turn to check my blindspot. parking was tougher than ever. so i couldnt turn my head at all. especially to the left side and upwards. breaking fast hurts cos i had to open my mouth. even swallowing my own saliva was painful. i was 'ouching' every few minutes. sleeping was painful too. so i rushed to the doctor right after breaking fast and i was given two days MC. and my neck was reallllyyyy pampered for the last two days. i was massaging it non stop with all sorts of medicated oil.. and i had to swallow pills. argh. hate it.

so tmr is the last day of school. my neck is recovering very well. thank God. guess i really needed the rest. and last weekend of fasting. so sad..time flies.. few more days to raya and ok now i am feeling it a little. i have promised my mum to help her clean up the place this weekend. so no work for the weekend. just me and the spring cleaning.

saw my aunt just now. she is sooooo small now. gosh. i dont know how she does it. i feel comparable to her now. tho i mite be exaggerating. haha. if sumone can become so small within a short time, i wonder if i can become so big withing a short time too. hehe. i wont mind growing bigger. haha.

bik miah's house is huge. overlooking the sea. kaoz. and its cheaper than mine by HALF. well thats cos her house is in JB. haha. but still. HALF. with a sea view and LOTS of space. she gave me some useful tips abt property and investment tho.

i'm supporting mas in her business too. hehe. well just so happen that she is selling stuffs that i am VERY interested in. muahahahaha. *evil lafter* and i think she's gona make me an online shopper soon.

i have been thinking abt so many things. and contemplating abt some stuffz too. wants versus needs. heh. if i want it, i shd just get it rite.. but then i will start thinking abt the needs thats coming up.. i dowan to be spending unnecessarily when i know that there are more important things on the list. but if i dun do it now, wld i ever get the chance to do it..

just how much can i trust my gut feeling. i'm wishing for surprises. been thinking of the things to do during holidays. just hope everything will go as planned. and i really hope the big aim can be met. thats the most important thing.

i realise tt certain things turn out to be just the exact opposite of what i have always wished for.

i wanted to teach bio.. i ended up with mostly chem *but its good now.. i'm starting to like it actually*

i wanted a big house .. i ended up with a tiny one *but i am promising myself its gona be only for a while.. i still wana achieve THAT dream of mine*

call me an idealist. its not necessarily something bad. in fact, its my idealistic nature that has pushed me all these while to always work towards my goals. it is the vision i have that makes me rooted to my aims in life. i am not idealistic. i just dare to dream. and willing to commit.

16 october. an important date on my calendar.

please tell me we are having the same cloud on our heads.

my fuel is running low seriously. i can feel the drag every single day!! i see the finishing line finally! yet it seems further than ever. BUT, beyond that finishing line is a whole lot of things that i cant wait to pounce on! gosh.

its down to the last ten days of fasting. sadly tho, i am not feeling the raya mood. maybe cos i am more occupied with the big O. or the akan datang. oh ok, wait. i know why i cant feel it. cos firstly, technically, i didnt buy any baju fr this year. mum made one for me, fmil gave me two sets and earlier in jan i bot two pieces cos it was a good deal. haha. so i dun see the need to buy another one now. BUT i do need to buy for that someone. trying to squeeze in time to go to Geylang one of these days to do that. talk abt Geylang, i haven been there. which is also prolly why i am nt feeling it.

what did i do fr the past weekend?

i had consultation in school from 8 to 1. after which i ran errands fr the family, went library to borrow some mags..and... guess wat.. i baked my very first kek kukus!!! unbelievable! many thanks to bik nora. her kek kukus rocks. so i told her to teach me and TA-DA!!! she baked one for my family and i baked one for my soon to be family. insyallah. i think thats my only achievement that deserves credit for this week. haha. i was supposed to bake my chocolate chip cookies but i had to priotise work first. cos i need them by tomorrow. haha. procastination.

oh.. the letter came..! so that made me so excited all over again!! supposed to be this friday.. but of cos, as planned, we will push it all the way till 16th october. i really hope we can do it on the 16th. its a significant date!! oh and the forever-enthusiastic me has decided to be more hardworking in my research. i have decided to borrow as many mags as i can from now till then and scan in all the things tt catch my eye.. so when the time comes, my resources would be ready and i can explain clearly exactly wat i want. they say a picture paints a thousand words. and i bet the many pictures can paint my many gigantic ideas in my head. lol. ok it prolly sounds like i have many wow things in mind. not true actually. just really simple ideas.. but to put simple ideas together somehow isnt that easy! or maybe its just me!

i am going to list down the things to do and places to go to once the school holidays start. by the time school ends, it wld have been like the 3rd week of raya.. so just nice.. done with school.. done with visiting..and then comes more exciting things! really hope to get the W stuffs done by end of november. then can do some shopping in Dec and get the H stuffz more firmed up. please please please.

its sunday and that marks the end of the september holidays. four more weeks and tt would wrap up 2008 academic year. God knows how thrilled i am to welcome the real holidays. cos theres really a lot of things to do once school ends.

once the End-of-Year exams is over, i can go full swing with all the preparations! been gearing up for it and i cant wait to start the ball rolling.

checked out the progress of the 'akan datang'... not too bad.. doing well.. wanted to snap pics but faris had secretly taken out the memory card. thanks. i brought my camera for nothing! shouldnt lend my camera to my bros anymore. they either use up the batt or take away the card. been too many times tt i wanted to use it only to realise tt it couldnt be used. so irritating!

collected my baju for raya. thank God i was given the kains..otherwise i wldnt have time to search for any outfits.. wouldnt be shopping much for this raya cos i figured tt i can still use watever i have now..lets not waste money.

odel has withdrew his offer for me and suggested something else instead. something more practical. like a washing machine! weow. so disappointed. my big bro has grown.. haha.. he is a different man now.. tts what he said! yah bro.. i cant wait fr raya and u knw why. haha.

just some thots about some things i have observed lately..

God gives us reaffirmation in many different creative ways.
its better not to speak than to speak and cause a lot of hurt.
its bad enuff to misundertand but its worse to mislead.
dun judge ppl based on their mistakes but give them a chance cos they have learnt from it.
the one who insults shd question his values instead of those whom he had insulted. treat others with respect especially when they have not done anything wrong to you.
resolve any unhappiness in a peaceful, civilised and mature way.
listen with an open mind, accept with an open heart.
be willing to give wat you expect to get.
listen to your heart and go all out for it. the winner fights to the very last opportunity.