i was in pain for the past two days. my neck was the stiffest ever. it must have been the result of months of staring down at my lap top since i like to place my lap top on my lap. haha. and plus my pathetic sleeping posture. i have the whole bed to myself but i sleep like a prawn. all curled up in one tiny corner. and so my neck decided to go on strike and refused to work! it was bad on monday especially after i baked the cookies. but i pressed on to go to work on tuesday cos of ASP and i had to print the exam papers. and i guess it was a bad decision cos my the time i knocked off, the pain was unbearable. i cldnt drive safely cos i cldnt turn to check my blindspot. parking was tougher than ever. so i couldnt turn my head at all. especially to the left side and upwards. breaking fast hurts cos i had to open my mouth. even swallowing my own saliva was painful. i was 'ouching' every few minutes. sleeping was painful too. so i rushed to the doctor right after breaking fast and i was given two days MC. and my neck was reallllyyyy pampered for the last two days. i was massaging it non stop with all sorts of medicated oil.. and i had to swallow pills. argh. hate it.

so tmr is the last day of school. my neck is recovering very well. thank God. guess i really needed the rest. and last weekend of fasting. so sad..time flies.. few more days to raya and ok now i am feeling it a little. i have promised my mum to help her clean up the place this weekend. so no work for the weekend. just me and the spring cleaning.

saw my aunt just now. she is sooooo small now. gosh. i dont know how she does it. i feel comparable to her now. tho i mite be exaggerating. haha. if sumone can become so small within a short time, i wonder if i can become so big withing a short time too. hehe. i wont mind growing bigger. haha.

bik miah's house is huge. overlooking the sea. kaoz. and its cheaper than mine by HALF. well thats cos her house is in JB. haha. but still. HALF. with a sea view and LOTS of space. she gave me some useful tips abt property and investment tho.

i'm supporting mas in her business too. hehe. well just so happen that she is selling stuffs that i am VERY interested in. muahahahaha. *evil lafter* and i think she's gona make me an online shopper soon.

i have been thinking abt so many things. and contemplating abt some stuffz too. wants versus needs. heh. if i want it, i shd just get it rite.. but then i will start thinking abt the needs thats coming up.. i dowan to be spending unnecessarily when i know that there are more important things on the list. but if i dun do it now, wld i ever get the chance to do it..

just how much can i trust my gut feeling. i'm wishing for surprises. been thinking of the things to do during holidays. just hope everything will go as planned. and i really hope the big aim can be met. thats the most important thing.

i realise tt certain things turn out to be just the exact opposite of what i have always wished for.

i wanted to teach bio.. i ended up with mostly chem *but its good now.. i'm starting to like it actually*

i wanted a big house .. i ended up with a tiny one *but i am promising myself its gona be only for a while.. i still wana achieve THAT dream of mine*

call me an idealist. its not necessarily something bad. in fact, its my idealistic nature that has pushed me all these while to always work towards my goals. it is the vision i have that makes me rooted to my aims in life. i am not idealistic. i just dare to dream. and willing to commit.

16 october. an important date on my calendar.

please tell me we are having the same cloud on our heads.