met a fren just now. he's getting married in dec..so i asked :

me: so how.. excited??
him: no..
me: why??
him: i'm more like stressed cos its costing me a bomb!!!
me: *shrugs*

and from there we started a whole discussion about how a wedding can cause a big big hole in the pockets!

seriously, the cost of weddings are getting ridiculously high these days! a sacred event seems more like a burden now!! a five digit sum for a one-day occasion. how bizarre is that. and theres still the honeymoon to think abt. and the house after that. sheesh. i'd rather spend my money on a superb honeymoon than a grand lavish wedding. unless of course i am so rich that i can 'throw' money away. no doubt grand weddings are beautiful.. but isit really worth all the money? after all, the wedding is only for a day.. the marriage is for a lifetime. so yeah. simple wedding would do for me. as long as i have my family and my beloved frens to share that precious moment with me.

my professor said yesterday "in singapore, once u take home 4K, u'd be very comfortable already... as you work, you will reach a point where the pay doesnt really matter anymore.. but its about whether u get happiness out of it..."

well, i certainly am not TAKING HOME 4K.. and i haven reached that point where PAY DOES NOT MATTER. of cos the pay is not everything, but it DOES matter BIG TIME. i'm like at the starting point of adulthood. i have a vision of what i wana be and what i wana achieve in five years down the road. so rite now, savings is my top main priority. i have a target to reach for myself by the end of this year. sticking to my financial plan faithfully. i hope and pray things would be smooth for me to achieve that goal.

but here's the weird relationship: the more u earn, the more you want.

khairun said its greed and its natural. well, isit really greed? if u were to look at it positively, its prolly the fact that nobody wants to be stagnant. everybody wants to keep moving on and stretch their potential to achieve greater heights. so let's say u are earning 3K at the age of 25... u wouldnt want to still be earning that much at the age of 30. even if u are earning more, u'd tend to compare with others.. only to find urself feeling worse.. then u start wondering if u are being ungrateful and not contented with ur life. is this why humans always complain? that life is never good enough?

its just like when u are in school. when u are failing, u aim to pass.. and when u pass, u feel that its not good enough and u want a distinction. and when u get the distinction, it becomes not good enuff again cos then u want to have the BEST distinction. u knw what i mean.

so when does it all end? theoretically, there exists a stage of contentment. apparently, not many people achieve it.

my new mantra: i cant compare apples with oranges.