bio prac is over. phew. i was a tad nervous cos it was my first time. thank God it went on smoothly. theory papers coming up next week. i'm gona freak out again. i always do on the exam day. as a student and a teacher. hehe.

i'm counting down the weeks to end of school. next week is the last week before sept break. then one week of 'rest' and 4 weeks of lessons. Final Year exams and the Big O's. Fasting and Raya. Egypt. Thats like my ultimate motivation. not sure if there'd be any other surprises or 'to-look-forward-to' occasions in between. *winks*

time flies. its already coming to end of august. sigh. i feel like i am aging or stg. Help. haha.

i wana shop. when oh when. managed to get a dress, a top and a 3/4 pants last week. was window shopping with my beloved buddy from work when i stumbled upon a great sale. its like i MUST buy them. so happy with the deal. hehe. so that kinda 'rang the bell' for me to wana shop more.

i miss my NUS days really. dun ask me why. been two years since i left. and i still think of those days when i mug all day and nite. i miss it so blardy much can! urgh. those days when school is everything! life revolves ard lectures, tutorials and friends. sounds pathetic but it was actually such a great journey. despite the stress. oh well, stress is always there. its kinda packaged into my life. so i've welcomed it since years ago and have grown to live with it till now. dealing with stress is survival.

i wish i am still 20. sigh. its so scary to know tt i am turning 24 soon. and before i knw it, i'd be hitting the magical THREE. geez. ok maybe i am thinking too much.

but what i knw is that, before that happens, i wana make sure tt my youth was well spent. i knw i had spent almost my entire life studying. no regrets tho. i enjoy learning. i wldnt wana stop. but now tt i am working, i wana travel the world. i like having goals cos it motivates me. and to see the various places on Earth is one of my life goals. and i wana do it with my loved ones.

constantly in check of my dreams and desires.

when things come at ur doorstep, what would u do?

some opportunities are meant to be seized. some are not as simple. the pressure of having to conform to others. the opportunity turns into a moral dilemma. do u live to please others? maybe u dont. but undeniably, 'others' always have a huge part to play in our decision making. and sometimes, they end up making the decision for us. consciously or subconsciously.

i wana be like thumbelina. small and happy.

sitting on the petals of the flowers
breathing in the scent of nature
soaking in the wonders of what surrounds u
understanding the bigger picture
appreciating the beauty of being small
mesmerize me. i wana fall in love with life.